~ Weekly Check-In (Stop by a moment)

Good Morning Chronic Pain Family!

 

 

     It is another beautiful Monday morning! The sun is shining, the birds are singing and spring is on the way. Some of you are already getting daily rain storms. Hopefully, those rain showers are not effecting your joints too badly. Regardless of how we feel today... There are still tasks to complete, jobs to do and appointments that need to be kept.    

      Often times we are so busy supporting others that we forget to update about ourselves. So, before we get too wrapped up in starting out the week... Please, stop by and let us know how you are doing. Give us an update. We want to know how you are doing. Even you old time veterans who are lurking.

 

How are you feeling? 

What was your pain scale over the weekend?

What are your major plans for the week?

Mrs Dani - you are delightful!

I am glad you do these fun things to help us focus on more than just our pain!

My next door neighbour's kids tried to burn down the neighbourhood this weekend. I saw the flames out my window and called 911. Nine and ten year old boys left unsupervised at 10:30pm playing with matches! My phone, cable and internet were down since Saturday night. Luckily no one was hurt and only 3 garages, a gazebo and the exterior of homes were effected. My place dodged a bullet.

I was jonesing to check back into Healing Well. I was just getting the hang of things!

Cheers,
Cheryl

The weather dropped by about 20 degrees over the weekend, and coupled with 45-55mph winds that cut like a knife, my pain has been pretty high. Grateful that over a week ago my PM doc put me back on 4/day for my pills as I'm not sure if I'm getting worse or if it's just the weather.

Over the weekend was not good. For those of you that saw my post I was already having sleep issues, and had a couple days in a row of panic attacks that seem to have been triggered by my appointment on Thursday this week to meet with a spine/brain specialist surgeon about doing my SCS unit implant. For the last four months I've been involved with an old friend, and weekends were almost always our time together. Not this past weekend. He didn't come out, and I couldn't afford to go see him. His reason was he wanted to clean his house. I tried to make it clear that I really needed his presence and that if he could clean some other time I'd appreciate it. I didn't want to mention that he's got all week as the fact that he's still unemployed is a real sore spot for him. To top it off we really only talk online in the evenings, but even that didn't happen. So when I finally got a chance to talk to him again (tonight actually) I asked him about the weekend, tried to make my feelings clear, and find out why he didn't come. To him not seeing me/spending time with me was no big deal, and that if we miss a weekend here and there it's no big deal. I was really hurt, but didn't know how to convey it. I wanted to tell him that I wish we'd talked about it first before he made that decision based on the fact that he had originally made a big push about how I could depend on him, and that my disability didn't scare him, that he was really supportive, and now suddenly, when I needed him most, he wasn't there. Maybe I'm just over reacting, but it really made me kick myself for forgetting to ask my PM about putting me on an anti-depressant given how low I felt after getting the brush off ... that it was no big deal. So me needing him is no big deal? I don't understand. How can you want someone to rely on you and need you, and when they ask for you to be there just brush them off with "oh I figured I'd just stay home and clean the house"?

So aside from that and the weather making my pain unbearable ... really it's no fun to take your pain meds and basically get zero reliefe ... I get to meet with this surgeon on Thursday. I guess I'll have a better update after that as this meeting will probably decide whether or not I'll go forward with the SCS implant. And if I don't I'm going to put my horse up for sale. Tanis is just to much of a handful for me. With my stimulator it wouldn't be so bad, but without, my arm just can't take it. He's a wonderful, young horse, and I love his goofy personality; I've never met a horse that loves to lick people so much! But it's not fair to him to just be an expensive lawn ornament, and honestly if I'm not going to be able to ride him then I can't afford to keep him. I'll probably put him up for sale or trade for something that's dead broke and bomb proof. Makes me really miss Sierra Rose ... I could always trust her, no matter how bad my pain or how loopy my meds made me, she always kept me safe while riding her.

 

Sorry everyone I haven't checked in before now. As far as my heart goes, I feel fine. It's this darn fatigue that I'm not used to. The last few days, it's got the best of me especially today. I'm a night owl and someone called this morning at 9am and woke me up. It was the lady at the drs office with the approval numbers for the MRIs of the thoracic and lumber spine, and the ct scan of the thorax that I have to get done. On the last MRI that found a cyst or something. It sounds really small. I needed to make the calls today, but I just couldn't. I had to go back to bed, as I could barely keep my eyes open. ( I think I went to bed about 2 or 3 am if I'm not mistakened). After I hung up, I went back to bed. I started the irritating thing of waking up, going to sleep, waking up going to sleep for about 2 or 3 hours and then I finally went to sleep and slept until 4pm. I got up and was still really tired. I stayed up until 6pm. I was able to get most of the local news in and then went back to bed at 6pm. I slept until Jerome woke me up at 8:30pm. I went back to sleep until 9pm, and then got up. It's now 3:36 am and I've been exhausted since I got back up. I don't know what's going on, but I'm sick of it. I feel so sorry for those of you that have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. What a pain in the butt.

Dani, The only way I know of that you could do anything around the house is to really, really push yourself. I can't do hardly anything. Poor Jerome has had to do all the cooking, cleaning, laundry, etc. ever since my condition became chronic. Bless his heart. He's a tru gift from God. He takes care of me and the house, oh did I forget to tell you that he takes care of the birds too? I'm able to give them food and water a lot of the time and put them to bed, but there are times when I'm hurting so much that he has to do it. I makes myself do it if he goes to bed and forgets to do it.

I sure we we had at least one bumblebee to bring me flowers and to watch them play outside. I know it's got to be extremely hard on you, but you are truely blessed.

Well, that's what's going on in our neck of the cold world. When is mother nature going to learn that it's spring around here? I'm so ready to be able to go outside without having to bundle up like it's mid-winter. Those that have warm weather, could you please send some our way?

Well, i'll go now. everyone take care and i hope you're having a low pain night and some good rest. I'm in a lot of pain and it's not snowing this time. Enough complaining.

love and hugs
Loretta