Hi Everyone, I’m sorry I’ve not been on to update you
all sooner on pain med switch, I’ve had horrendous time TBH it’s been a nightmare.......Here’s
a update
As some of you know from last update post. I switch
from Oxycontin & Oxynorm (BT) to MST Continus (MSContin) & Oramorph (BT),
The new meds wasn't working, it didn’t take the edge of my pain, I was taking 60mg
MST Continus every 12hrs & 20mg Oramorph every 4hrs even during the night
& still wasn’t taking the edge off, during weekend I got worst & worst,
I was in so much pain, screaming & crying in agony, I couldn’t take much
more, I did however manage to get thru the weekend & Monday somehow, don’t
how I manage it mind you but I did! Every minute pain was getting worst. The
side effects hit me so hard too, (I spoke to soon that anti-sickness meds
worked cause it came back & hit me hard at weekend too).........I had
massive headaches, I felt/sounded drunk, I couldn’t talk properly, forgetting
words/memory loss, I had trouble passing water, was having major anxiety &
panic attacks, It felt like I was having a nervous breakdown, crying all the
time with pain & feeling so low/depressed TBH couldn’t cope, but I muddled
thru somehow, I’ve no idea how I managed tho, some things are a blur
Come Tuesday Morning, I had to see the nursing sister
for my routine 4 weekly injection, before speaking to my Dr later for update on
new meds.......Going back to the morning, With me seeing the same nurse every
4wks who also my Epilepsy support nurse too, when I went in to see her she knew
something was really wrong with me, she asked me what was wrong, I couldn't
speak, no words came out, I burst into tears, I cried & cried so much, I
couldn’t stop..... Eventually I did manage to tell her (I think), I was
slurring my words, forgot what I was saying in mid sentence because I couldn't
remember words I was saying. No sooner as I told her as much as I could
remember or she got gist of it, she ran out of the door for my Dr. Cutting
along story short, he told me to stop taking the Morphine
immediately! He’s put me back on Oxycodone.
After speaking to my Dr, had the Injection/treatment, I
had a chat with the nursing sister she explained things to me, if I would have
taken another dose of morphine it would have tip me over the edge & sent me
crazy. I was that close of losing my memory altogether! She did say other
things but can't remember.
I got myself all worked up again because I couldn't get
my words out! Again breakdown in tears! After I stopped crying, she said it would have done me good to
let all the emotions out I've been bottled up inside for so long. She also told me, I can call her anytime if I’m worried about something, feeling low, if can't cope or
just want a chat. she here for me, to help me through this, never ever feel or
suffer alone, because bottling it all up is not good.
I have now been back on Oxycontin & Oxynorm three &
half days, but because I still have Morphine in my system I’m still feeling
effects (not as server) it’s going to take aweek for the Morphine to get out of
my system completely.......Once the Morphine gone & Oxycodone takes over,
My Dr said I’ll start to feel myself again.
I have appointment to see him in two weeks time, to see
if I’m on the correct dosage because my body had a complete wash out it’s like
starting on Oxycodone again, hopefully Oxycodone will take the edge of the
pain. As yet it’s not happening but its early days & still got morphine in
my system.
I'm so glad I didn't
take my next dose of Morphine which was due btw, goodness knows what would have
happen! I'm gradually making progress, got some of my memory back, I still having
trouble remembering words & I still stop in mid sentence but I’m not as bad
as I was. I’m not slurring my words like I was so that’s one good thing. I
still feel nauseas but the meds Dr gave me are helping.
I'm truly blessed & so grateful that I have such a caring
Dr & nurse who help, support & understand me........I'm also blessed
that I came across this forum, met such lovely caring, supportive people who
know/understand chronic pain, because without you all including my Dr &
nurse, I wouldn't how I would have coped. You all are angels.
Much Love to all
Claire