Today is the day for the battle of the PM's

Again, more thanks. I am not yet "released" from my PM, but I expect him to "release" me based on his comments and opinions and those of the second opinion Dr. It was a really bad day. I haven't shared everything here, but I had a domestic violence incident a little over a month ago where my back showed bruises. The PM knows because I told them when they asked how the bruises got there. I don't want to discuss all the specifics. I had my husband arrested and he is in treatment now for alcoholism and for this domestic violence thing. My regular PM FREAKED OUT about it and said he was worse than a pedophile and would never stop ( I don't want to argue, so please, please don't ask a lot about this issue....I have to deal with it the only way I know how. It was not a beating thing, but a shoving and pushing thing (with grabbing) that left bruises and scratches/marks all over. The police took a lot of photos.

So....when I told my PM I wanted a better quality of life, he told me my only quality of life problem was that I was allowing this horrible man to treat me horribly and that I wasn't really in pain.....basically it was all in my head.

Only my psych knows everything. He is certified to treat patients on suboxone and to treat addiction problems. He KNOWS I'm not suffering from addiction, and he has prescribed pain meds for a friend's husband a couple of years ago because he said abuptly stopping pain meds will cause psychological and physical harm to the patient. He also told me at my last appointment that he has a good friend who does PM who operates on the islands (Hilton Head or somewhere like that) and that he would personally do a referral. I think his referral would be quite different than what Ihafe previously. It would take several hours to get to the appointments, but if he gave a personal recommend (because he has seen me at almost all pain levels for years now....his appointments are an hour) and he can attest that I am not fibbing about any of it. I have also had my drug test results sent to him because he prescribes the only med Xanax XR that doesn't show up correctly. He KNOWS I'm honest and were I am as far as depresion goes.

So, if there is any way he can help, I honestly believe he will.

You guys have kept me from breaking down already. I appreciate the information (even if it is not what I would like to hear). It means a great deal to me!! All of you do as well!!!!!!!!!

You guys really are the greatest! No, I'm not bi-polar and he did not read that in a file. ALso, neither had a reason to be as ugly as they were. I've been living on pins and needles for a while with my old PM and you guys know it. I didn't share everything because I it's all just a little too personal. I can share that my husband has been completely without alcohol since August 5th. It's no big deal to a lot of people, but it is a great big deal to someone who has been drinking for his entire life...at least 30 years. Again, I just give that info for you to understand my constant state of worry...not for open discussion (please). I cannot handle any more right now.

I didn't ask for anything that was unreasonable in any way and I didn't deserve the horrible treatment I received. I hope and pray I don't loose my PM....I do need it so badly. I will be checking on the medical records this week and I will be taking someone to my next appointment (no matter with whom it is). I just can't hardly take my husband (I'm sure you understand) because of the way my PM was so ugly about him. It's too complicated.

Anyway, I wanted to say thankyou for everything. I really was looking forward to getting better help and now it is ruined.....so I will find a way.

Thank you again for everything and for simply being there without judgement about my homelife. It's hard enough for you to live with CP, but when you add in a difficult home life then things really get difficult.

Love to all my HW friends!

Three month Jane...and that is supposed to be the NP. I'm supposed to do med pick-up's each month in between, but this Dr is KNOWN for cancelling his patients even with appointments scheduled. He does not give you the opportunity to discuss his choice....just a letter that says you are no longer a patient. I pray I don't get the letter, but who knows.

I'm going to try to get a copy of the medical records from the second Dr after business opens today. The sign on the wall said three days and it has certainly been that long, so I'll try to get the copies as quickly as I can to see exactly what he said. I think that is going to make a great difference in what happens next.

Thanks again.