Dear Sweet Barbara,
You have to let go of this guilt you feel over hubby's parents not seeing him. He is a grown man with a family and has a wife who needs him daily now due to health issues. If they don't understand, don't worry for one second about it. As for hubby, his place is with you first and if the roles were reversed you would be with him and forgo a visit with your dad, whom I know you loved so much. And would YOU have felt guilty? No, I know you, you wouldn't have felt guilty, cause hubby and daughter have always come first to you. Well give him (hubby) the same expectation and chance to treat you as you would have treated him in a reverse situation. You know I am right.
As for daughter, you do not want to put all of that burden of staying with you on her, I agree with you. Barbara, start thinking of you every day and what can be done for Barbara. Be a little selfish for a change. You are in dire pain now with these infusions and the stress of the possible side effects are driving you crazy, so be gentle with yourself. Listen to some soothing music. Ask for CD's for Christmas and have your comfy headphones nearby. Treat yourself to some lotions if your skin will tolerate it. In other words, think of ways to be nice to Barbara and leave the worries of hubby's family, who is so nasty to you, alone. Dote on yourself for a change. You certainly deserve it.
I remember when you used to be in the chat rooms at night and I remember how important is was for you to welcome every newcomer into the room and make them feel welcomed, especially if they were a newcomer to the site. That is the type of person you are Barbara. I remember all the times that you have been there for me too during my trials and tribulations. You deserve to be as content as possible. I am so sorry that you are going through so much pain and through so much with the side effects of all your medicines. You know you are in my prayers every single day.
God bless you. Keep posting and remember, we all care and want to know how you are doing and coping. Get that lump looked at asap. too.
Lindaloo