New Here! Looking for much needed support!

Hi everyone, my name is Kayla!
I'm 17 and have been dealing with chronic pain since November of 2011. This pain has caused me to drop out of highschool and took away all quality of life I ever had. I have severe upper abdominal pain worsened after eating. Nausea and vomiting have been a harsh reality the past year also.

Surgeries:
Laparoscopy
Endoscopy
Angioplasty
Gallbladder Removal
Triple Aortic Reconstruction (Bypass surgery reconstructing my aorta, SMA, celiac and both renal arteries.
Systoscopy is being performed this Monday.

Meds:
Omeprazole
Folic Acid
Hydroxyzine
Ducolax
Colace
Miralax
Amitriptyline

Was given Norco and Tramadol but my new primary physican has decided to rip those away from me as he suggests it is all in my head and prescribed me ibuprofen 800mg. Ugh.

I just don't know where to turn anymore, I'm constantly in severe 8/10 pain in my abdominal and back with no plausible cause! I've had every blood test, X-ray, CT, MRI, MRA. Everything. Suicide recently has even crossed my mind when I become so depressed from the pain. I just wish I could find out what's going on and/or be treated! I keep a pain journal but an still just looked at as a 17 year old drug seeker, it's so frustrating!

Known Medical Problems:
Ovarian Cysts
Fibro Muscular Arterial Dysplasia
Aortic Aneyurism
Renal Stenosis
Irritable Bowel Syndrome
Pancreatitis often
Interstitial Cystitis
Acid Reflux
Beginning Endometriosis
Anemia

As I'm sure there is more, this is all that comes to mind at the moment.. Ugh, I just don't know where to go from here. :,(

Thanks for your reply! :)
I definitely understand concern for doctors not wanting to prescribe me narcotics but what's frustrating is they just completely shut me out! All I'm looking for is some answers. I'm always told by the people around me how strong and brave I am, especially since my last bypass surgery. But how much longer can I keep this strength and willpower to fight..? My willingness to continue is beginning to diminish. I'm starting to think I may just remain this depressed and in pain for the rest of my life.. Ugh. :,(

I understand Kayla, I really do. It is a frustrating and helpless feeling when it seems like a doctor is shutting us out or just plain not listening. And trust me, that part is not age-related! I am in my 40's and I still have to deal with that. But there ARE good doctors out there, those that practice within the guidelines of the Hypocratic oath (the oath that they ALL swear to uphold, but that so many seem to have forgotten!).

Jim gave you some good advice, especially about dealing with stress. I know how hard it is to handle stress when you are dealing with severe pain. But it really is important to learn good coping skills. Part of that is finding things to do that help distract your mind from thinking about the pain. I do puzzles - crossword, word searches, logic problems, etc. I also do beading. No, it doesn't take away the pain, but it does help distract the brain from thinking of 'Pain, pain, pain'. And every little bit helps - trust me. People are telling you that you are strong and brave because you probably ARE. But sometimes it gets old being strong, I know.

Every time you feel that your ability or desire to keep fighting is wavering - dig a little deeper! I (and many others here) are living proof that things can (and DO) get better. One of the things that every one of us has in common is that we never give up. There are times we feel weak, frustrated, scared, hopeless, and just plain sick of fighting - but we just keep plugging forward! And remember that everything you are feeling is totally normal. Be sure to tell your doctors how you are feeling. Although feeling down and depressed can be a normal 'side effect' of chronic pain, you want to make sure that is all it is.

We are here for you! C: