tina,
don't know where to start, or if I should even start at all. appreciate what you wrote and why you wrote it, really do.
for starters, I will cease to post anymore descript
ive pain accounts here. I can't help that they are very detailed and very descript
ive. that is the writer in me. what I write is literally how I am feeling at that moment in time, very literal, very detailed, and never enhanced. not being written to "impress" the crowd, nor looking for sympathy. I don't want anyone's sympathy, I don't feel sorry for me, this is just what life has handed me, nothing more - nothing less.
but these descript
ive writings upset people too much, and I guess I didn't realize that in my weird way of thinking. I am sorry. I thought I was simply sharing my experience, guess it was t.m.i.
let's look at some options:
can't go to the ER - they would see nothing wrong, but a person already on heavy meds seeking more meds without going through their doctor. our local ER's are full of drug seekers, and the ER's have heard every excuse. Plus I am not looking for more drugs. I am looking for a better dx, that will lead to better treatment.
steroid based injections - no way, very allergic to any steroid based meds, plus pain so wide spread, just where would they choose to inject? this is what one doctor already told me about injections.
my oncologist can prescribe pain meds with more liberty than say a PCP, but even he said he has his limits, he has to be careful, he doesn't want to get nailed by the system, he doesn't want to lose his ability to prescribe meds. so he has to make sure there is a proper dx to justify certain meds and higher doses. that makes perfect sense to me. in my cancer situation, I can not afford to close such a skilled oncologist, as my cancer continues to progress.
He said that of all his PC patients he currently sees, I am having the most severe trouble with pain, and I don't even have bone mets yet. Can you imagine what it will be like when I finally cross the line over to mets? And its going to happen, or we are doing right now is buying me some time, because my QOL already sucks so much.
And whose fault are all these delays and setbacks? Easy for someone to blame my doctor. I am just one of many many patients, I don't expect him to devote his every waking moment to David Riley. Not realistic.
It took time to set up that appt. at MUSC in Charleston. Then I had to arrange the trip, then we went, then I saw him, and that was a waste of time.
Same thing with this Dr. "S" here in Greenville, the alledge CRPS expert that ended up being, let's say, some kind of nut case in disguse. My doctor's fault? No, I asked to see this doctor, based on his advertisement and web page.
And since found out, not all neurologist have CRPS expertise, many don't. So all these things take time, why is that hard to understand.
Same as me trying to see this specialist at Duke. Not an easy thing to set-up, then I have to consider my wife's work schedule, the long trip itself (not sure I can be in a car for 5 or 6 hours).
That's why it takes some patience and understanding.
So for now, not going to share any more descriptive pain episodes. They will still happen of course, but I will keep it to myself, as it obviously is serving no useful purpose here at HW CP.
I will, however, keep posting medical updates when I get them, med changes, etc. and of course, I am dedicated to staying here and helping as many people as I can, for as long as I can.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts on the matter.
david
p.s. if you referring to a certain pain "med" that is in leaf form that we can't talk about, I wouldn't do it even
if it were legal in SC, and it was free of charge, and if it worked 100%. I have personal reasons and moral reasons from my distant past that I really can't share here that would prevent me from doing so. I have no problems if others are ok with it, not being judgmental to anyone else.
Post Edited (Purgatory) : 6/28/2013 8:52:52 AM (GMT-6)