Trigger finger, carpal tunnel, cmc arthroplasty

Hello,
I've been reading the post here on the trigger finger release because I felt that recover was my hardest. On Dec. 12, 2013 I had all 3 of these surgeries done on my left hand. I suppose since he was going to be in there anyway why not knock them all out at once. I've been seeing my doctor several years, he has a great reputation as a hand specialist and I went into this knowing it would be months of recovery but knowing and living it are 2 different things.
I'm a 57 year old woman, glass and jewelry artist, healthy, active but have arthritis in all my hand joints and my wrist are the worst. I'd been getting injections in my wrist over the past 3 years and been on vicodin for pain. We decided at the end of this year since my deductible was met that now was the time to do the surgeries. My goal was to get off the medicine. The trigger fingers only started last summer and weren't bad, only when I woke up in the morning. We never did any treatment on them. This was all 3 middle fingers. The carpal tunnel was mild but again in for a dollar in for the pound!

I'm 7 weeks out and feel like I've been deformed and disabled. Im not saying its not getting better but Im terrified something is wrong and not knowing anyone else thats been through this i have nothing to base it on. The surgery took 3+ hours and they put me fully to sleep with the tube down my throat which I was told they wouldn't do. I woke up vomiting and did so for the next four days. Every time I had to lift my arm to move the pillows it triggered a gag reflex. They numbed the left arm before leaving the hospital which lasted 4 days but for some reason it didn't numb the palm of my hand and so for that first week the pain was excruciating. At 2weeks the surgical bandage came off in which caused me to faint at the doctors office. I was horrified at my hand and arm. Removing the stitches was also horrible and many got left in and the PT ended up taking them out. My first cast was too tight and the swelling got so out of control it had to be removed 2 weeks early and a custom splint made. This brought some relief but the scar for the three trigger fingers has now healed strange by pulling inward and shortening the length of my palm and I have a large mass of scar tissue which seems to inhibit proper bending of my fingers to ball up a fist. I still have a lot of swelling and surgical pain.

Has any one had all 3 procedures done at once and maybe have some encouragement. Im join to PT twice a week and Im working non stop at home. They tell me I'm expecting too much too soon and I'm trying to be patient but I feel myself slipping unto a very deep depression and feeling of loss and regret. I hope in a few months to laugh at myself and just feel silly. I will not be doing the other hand ever. Any of you that have thought of doing both hands at once. don't even try that.

Thanks for at least listening. I feel so alone. My sons that live with me are 25 & 17 and a great help but all kids want their parents to be strong and tough and even friends just want to hear I'm getting better and not how hard it is.
Jeri

Thank you Vickie for the encouraging words. I think I'm just exhausted and feeling very alone being in the middle of a divorce after 32 years isn't helping the increasing depression. I've been so fortunate in my life to have never even had stitches so this is overwhelming. I breezed though birthing 6 children without blinking an eye but this is another story altogether. I keep telling myself it's nothing compared to what I see and hear others going through and tell myself to be stronger and stop complaining. I'll read more and see if I can find something to ease my fears!
Jeri