Mother's Day

Loretta, I had no idea....

I am so sorry for your pain.

Sending lots of love and hugs your way!







M.

I'm also Mom to an Angel Loretta and although it's been 21 years and I have 5 wonderful children there's days like Mother's Day that make the absence more profound. Hoping you found some peace in the knowledge that someday you will hold those babies again!

She was 11 days old Loretta! She was born at 25 weeks from a placenta abruptions with cerebral palsy and she threw a blood clot that caused a massive cerebral hemorrhage.

Yes Loretta when we knew there was no hope left of anything more then a "existence" of sorts no matter how long they could keep her alive I chose to take her out of the incubator and rock her in my arms. I knew this would inevitably bring the end for her suffering such as it was. I held her until even life support could not support her anylonger and then some. She died peacefully in her mother's arms as it should be. She was way too early, far too sick, and would have suffered whatever time she had here endlessly.

There's not one milestone that would have been in her life that I haven't thought of her, when she would have walked, started school, high school, all thru the years but she would not have ever experienced any of those things in her life. My choice that day was difficult but watching her suffer a lifetime would have been more so.