insurance changes. My meds aren't covered

Hey sweetie...I'm so sorry as I am fighting a similar battle, though not with a government entity.  I refrain from politics, but will repeat that our country's health care system (or lack thereof) is a far greater threat to American citizens than terror groups or Ebola.

BTW, Kadien is extended release Morphine...not Methadone.  Morphine (MS Contin) had potential in my early PM trials, with increased dosing.  However, due to mal-absorption/metabolism issues, the benefits were "bleeding" via sweat, profusely through my pores.  I would have required an "enigma" dosage, plus I was in constant danger of bowel obstruction.

I just wanted to say I hear you and I'm sorry for your suffering.

Hugs~~Dixie

Ang...Yes, every freaking day is a battle.  I'd tell you "it gets better" but I'd be lying to you. Unfortunately, we have to soldier on.  I'm sorry you're frustrated and hurting. If misery indeed loves company, then you and I should hang out I've considered that option, too, but decided it would be a total waste of good rope. I get SO angry...then it turns to dark sadness.  I reach DEEP to find a sense of humor amongst the insanity.  I sometimes join in and enjoy the ride.

I use every coping mechanism known to mankind.  I have finally surrendered to the hope of a better life through chemistry...but like you, can't afford the high priced meds I need.

Stay strong.  You're not alone here.

Hugs~~Dixie

I'm so sorry :(

Thank you so much guys. Just knowing I'm not alone is a huge help, though I wish this on nobody else. I am feeling very defeated this early Am. my pain is very high, of course the morphine not touching it, and its my shoulder, leg, arm not same as shoulder, elbow, everything.... I am 29 and have totally missed out of a real life and I don't see it getting any better.

In reguards to the meds, at least the OxyC gave me a little energy, now i'm just laying in the dang bed all the time. I did get to spend time with my only Joy, my Niece Jovie. Her name comes from Jovial, meaning a happiness, joy, and her middle name is grace, so her name mean undeserved complete happiness and joy. and she totally lives up to that name. She smiles like no other child I've seen, she loves to make you laugh and is absolutely the best therapy I have ever had....but I'm kinda paying for all the extra attention I have her now. Totally worth it though. I really think sometimes that little girl is the only reason I am still here....

But again, thanks for letting me know at least on here I am not alone, although life sure doesn't feel really lonely right now. Seeing all my friends on Facebook getting married, having kids or 2 or 3, having a career, and the worse-being taken care of by a friend i had in high school in the ER as she was my nurse...its so embarrassing.

I hope you guys have a better week. I follow up with shoulder surgeon the 6th so we'll see what he says about if I reinsured it in the bad fall....and start PT. I dread it as I am already in so much pain but know its key to success.

My hope is found in nothing less, than jesus blood and righteousness. If you believe this, go look up the lyrics, helped me in my crying spell a bit ago.