Posted 3/18/2015 4:17 PM (GMT 0)
I was born with Alagille Syndrome in 1985.
Added to multiple massive organ surgeries, all of which have felt like molestation, I have had continuous belly pain since I was very small. A couple of years ago, they became so bad that I had several episodes where both my stomach and back hurt and I couldn't even lie down or sleep. I talked to my doctor about this, and he insisted that it was lactose and sucrose intolerance. That made no sense to me, because I observed no difference in the pain between days when I consumed dairy or sugars, and days when I didn't. Instead of considering this information, he became offended, and insisted again that it was as he said. I eventually decided to try and believe him, and a month or so later I was hospitalized, and found that scar tissue from all those multiple surgeries had built up in my intestines and caused terrible blockage. The scar tissue was removed, but mere days later and I could have had my intestines removed. All because a doctor didn't want to be questioned.
I still have some belly trouble, even though it's nothing like before, but I'd still like to try and resolve what's left. It's still a real hindrance each day. I tried seeing a new doctor, who seemed better at first, but last time said if she tries to resolve what is left over, it could go wrong and I might have to spend the rest of my life in the hospital.
To someone traumatized by hospitals since birth as I have been, that possibility is worse than death. I wonder how I should go about seeking to resolve what belly pains remain (found to be likely due to a stressed-out intestine)
I also want to ask something, because I don't see a forum for Chronic Illness. Does anyone ever get irritated at the way sick children are portrayed in shows and movies, as being accepting of their illness(es) and completely trusting of doctors and nurses? For me, a hospital has always been a prison, full of abuse, neglect, and molestation, and I have had almost nothing but bad experiences with doctors. I have always hated my illness, and tried hard to fight against it. Has anyone else felt the same?