Excruciating pain after accident then hand surgery 3 wks ago

i'm just needing some support from those who might understand. plz excuse typos and abbreviations, i am one-handed. on 6/11 i fell and severed 3 tendons in my hand, also did huge damage to nerves and muscle. how it happened: i was barefooted on tile after swimming; time to eat...had a plate of food in right hand and glass in left; slipped on a wet spot, rt foot slid to the right (about did the splits!) which threw all my weight forward onto left hand holding glass. off to ER where i got 19 stitches in underside of arm and i dont know how many in palm of hand. it was a VERY deep cut. life has not been good for me since that day. i had surgery 9 days later, 2-1/2 hours under gen anesthesia. i live alone and i'm struggling, to say the least. i had help from my daughter the first night and have been pretty much alone since then with this pain and my thoughts, apart from help from my daughter, occasional visits from friends, and my son made it by once. i am way too independent and find it hard to reach out and ask for help - or just some company. i'm on medical leave from my job in downtown dallas, and i get the sense that my office cannot understand why a cut on my hand and resulting surgery would keep me out of work so long.
so that's my sob story. now on to the pain. i have a new appreciation for those with chronic pain. i had my 2nd physical therapy session yesterday, my first experience with her manipulating/bending my fingers. my pain level is back to where it was 2 wks ago. i am beside myself, wondering if i will ever get better. i know i just have to "hang in there", but it is hard...and lonely in this never-ending excruciating pain.
anyone out there with experience with hand/tendon/nerve repair who can relate?? i'm sorry for all the whining. it's not my usual style...

Thank you so much for your reply, Susie. It means a lot to know someone understands ! You are so right on several points, especially about not wanting people to feel sorry for me. Not it at all. In fact that's one way to really infuriate an independent person - ha!
I had a horrible day yesterday, and I will be on high alert now for the days after PT. I plan also to tell my therapist about my level of pain. She may not be surprised or change anything but maybe she did get too aggressive for just the 2nd session...
The pain is bad again this morning so I am waiting for the pain pill to kick in before getting up, getting dressed, and doing some household stuff. Yes, I'm only on pain meds and nothing specifically for nerves. I will ask my doctor about that. Nerve pain is a whole new thing for me and hard to even describe. It's bad though. Really bad.
Thanks again for your kind words. They helped. So you're in Ft Worth huh? This has been the craziest summer with all these thunderstorms Wettest I can remember in a while. Much better than drought conditions but sure does make it steamy.
My coworker is picking me up to go to lunch today so that's something to look forward to. Days on end of isolation can wear on a soul. Take care.

JulieDee, Just know that you got this. Being an independent woman, you are going to feel more than just pain in your hand/arm. Accept yourself where you are at and try to accept help. You are blessed if it is available to you. Long story short, I shattered both bones in my forearm. I have 2 plates and 12 screws in my arm. Being one in a million...a plate broke. I was casted (right arm) for 5 1/2 months before going in to do a bone graft from my right (same side) hip. I lived alone and upstairs through it all (surgeries were 1 year apart). For the life of me, I don't know how I did it but I got through it and now my arm is fine. You can do it too. I'm glad you have also gained more compassion for those of us with chronic pain. it's impossible to understand until you've experienced it and as an independent woman myself, much shame surrounds my constantly having to limit life due to "chronic pain."

I wish you the very best in your recovery.