Posted 6/5/2022 4:36 AM (GMT 0)
So, I have been diagnosed with condition after condition over the past 17 years since I was in a car wreck that broke my neck and back.
I am also bipolar, and under medical treatment for that as well.
Because of my limited mobility, i have become morbidly obese, have intermittent high blood pressure, am pre-diabetic, and tend to fall down a lot.
about 10 years ago, I went through a year where my legs kept going out from under me for no apparent reason, and I was so terrified by it that I went to the emergency room almost every time I fell, so much so that my younger brother once asked me, when picking me up from the hospital, if I had 'gotten my fix'...which hurt me badly because they were not giving me any kind of pain meds stronger than Torridol anyway.
At one point, at a family get together, my older brother told me I am useless and that I needed to stop going to the hospital. I tried to explain what was going on but he just said I dont care, you are embarrassing the family.
I am now so disabled by neck, back, hip and knee problems that I cannot get around without a walker or cane, and have not left my apartment in over 2 months. I order all my supplies over the internet, have them delivered, and my son comes to bring them in.
I can barely take care of myself, yet my family just thinks I'm either faking or nuts and the don't speak to me unless I contact them. and even then you can sense the disdain dripping from their words.
I am trying desperately to get my conditions under control, but It's hard for me to get out of my non-handicap accessible apartment to go to appointments, and all the specialists for my condition are 80 miles away, and riding in a car for two hours each way is almost impossible for me.
I am at my wits end on how to deal with both my disabilities, my chronic pain, and my jackass family.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks.