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Posted 4/30/2008 7:59 PM (GMT 0)
I just needed to vent for a second...I am so freakin' tired of my freakin' guts. I've had diarrhea five times so far today and I'm urinating so much protein that it's practically solid. I have a three-hour-long class followed by a huge immunology exam tonight, then have to prepare for my standardized patient exam tomorrow (I'll be videotaped and have to do a history/physical and make a diagnosis for the patient). I feel like I'm melting into a puddle and am just so frustrated, feel like I have no energy to take care of others and this is supposed to be my job. I see my GI next week and probably am going to talk to him about an infectious disease consult but just at the moment I feel so overwhelmed! Ugh! Thanks for letting me vent.
Posted 4/30/2008 8:01 PM (GMT 0)
((((Sarita)))))
Posted 5/1/2008 12:23 AM (GMT 0)
Sarita! Cheer up! You should ace the patient exam! You undoubtedly know how to treat a patient because you been one so many times if you have CD. Hey! For the patient exam, use yourself! You can poke and prod and they will think you are a star because you nailed a difficult diagnosis!!
Posted 5/1/2008 2:31 AM (GMT 0)
I loved you calling your thread "vent-a-licious" When I'm feeling overwhelmed, I remind myself that somehow or other the day always ends, and I try to keep putting one foot in front of the other until I get there. Try to block out distractions and study on the pot if you have to:) Remember though Sarita, that if you ever need a leave of absense until your medical condition stabilizes, you have certainly earned it! No one is super-human, and although you have my admiration and come pretty close, you still may reach a point when it's time to stop! I used to help teach doctor-pat. relationship skills...I have no doubt whatsoever that you will ace the patient exam! Sending you all the love and encouragement I can!!!!! Good luck...your buddy and one of your biggest Crohnnie fans...Gumby
Posted 5/1/2008 2:46 AM (GMT 0)
Sarita, sorry you're having a tough time of thing, especially at this important time.

You've been such a help to many on here, so rest easy, we'll all have you in our thoughts. Best of luck hun....
Posted 5/1/2008 3:31 AM (GMT 0)
Hey Sarita!!! HANG IN THERE! You are so close to done with this semester. I am so sorry you are feeling so crappy and hopefully you will only feel better tomorrow. Can you take some Immodium to get you through the next couple days? Do they have any idea what is going on with your urine yet? How frustrating!! Just know that you are an inspiration for so many. And like Gumby said, there is strength in admitting our limitations as well. But being at the end of my semester as well, with just papers and finals left, there is no way I would ever give up now. Remember, you are an inspiration to all the people that are just diagnosed wondering if it is possible to work or to go to school when you are having D. [Again, not knocking those that go on disability just saying that we all need a role model when we want to keep going!] I just keep reminding myself that it is the same every semester. Two weeks of total h-e-double hockey sticks and then SUMMMMMER. [Although for me, and probably you too, summer means work. But it means no homework!] Also, do what you can to get your sleep and study. For me, I work great late at night. So I stay up all night and then sleep in till 1 during reading week. And no worries about doing the patient exam. You have that down pat. You should leave a physicians desk reference or something in the other room and then if you have to go to the bathroom during it say "I want to get something to show you." Go to the bathroom, but come back with the book... and then show the patient something to do with their disease. My doc randomly shows me charts of the guts and I always wonder if he is just making an excuse to get out of the room for a minute. Maybe he has gas lol! Let us know how it goes!
Posted 5/1/2008 5:16 AM (GMT 0)
Hang in there Sarita....somehow you'll get through it.! Years from now you'll marvel at all you were able to accomplish even though there were so many barriers. Somehow , we find the strength to do what we need to do.... Once your semester is finished you can hang up your stethescope , put your feet up, sleep in....and get better. I always seemed to get worse when things were all done, before I got better....
You WILL Get through it!Concetrate on the present...right now...not "How am I ever going to....." take it one step at a time. You ARE an inspiration to all of us....and you've been so helpful, supportive to all of us at one time or another. Know that we are sending prayers , strength, and an imaginary CORK! your way.
Seriously...you are in my prayers.
Love
Mary
Posted 5/1/2008 5:26 AM (GMT 0)
Mary - your cork image cracked me up.
Posted 5/1/2008 6:17 AM (GMT 0)
LOL, you guys just made my smile practically melt my face off. You are truly awesome, supportive people. It feels good to hear all of your encouragement. Like I've said before, I wish I could just adopt this whole board when I finally get that medical degree behind my name...I would bust myself to do whatever I could for you!

My exam tonight I don't think went very well...my guts were churning the whole time and I was very uncomfortable, and add that onto the fact that it was just downright hard, I'll be lucky to squeeze by with a C (but as we say in medicine...70=DO!) I just am so excited for the quarter to be over. One more week of class with two final exams next week, then four final exams the week after. Then SUMMER.

My plans for the summer: GET MARRIED and PARTAY! Then come back here and have a low-key honeymoon. Then take in all my feelings of relief that there's no projects/exams/research that needs to be done. Then be a pain in the arse for my doctors so they can throw all their hardcore remedies my way and tell me how to fix my life. I am going to volunteer at some local hospices and do "Hospice Rounds" with the physicians each week for a while. Then head up to Alaska for a couple weeks to see my beloved friends. Then just be a good housewife for a while until all this mugaloo starts again in September.

You guys made me feel so much better. So did the run/hike I took in a local mountain park while the sun set. I thought my guts would spill out of my belly button or something, but I ended up making it okay :)

So many hugs to all!
Posted 5/1/2008 2:25 PM (GMT 0)
Sarita, all I have to say is you ROCK girl:) I wish we could all have doctors like you, I know one day you are going to have some very happy patients.

((HUGS))
Posted 5/1/2008 4:47 PM (GMT 0)
I think you are going to be a great Doctor!!! You know how it feels to be the patient and definitely know how it feels to be in pain. Most doctors don't have a clue! Now too bad I can't come see you. Karen
Posted 5/1/2008 6:30 PM (GMT 0)
I passed my exam!!!

Posted 5/1/2008 6:57 PM (GMT 0)
Congrats!!!!!
Posted 5/1/2008 7:39 PM (GMT 0)
Just takes things one day at a time - except your days are like the average person's month! So I should say, take one hour at a time. One year during my law school final exams, I was pregnant and was sick with something or other. I did miss one of my finals. I had to jump some hoops to do so, needed a doctor's note before the final and after. But just know that even though at times it may feel like there's no possible out, there always is, if necessary. Congrats on passing final #1, only 6 more to go! (only??)
Posted 5/1/2008 8:05 PM (GMT 0)
congratulations.
Posted 5/1/2008 8:25 PM (GMT 0)
Woo hoo, congrats on passing your exam!!! We are so proud of you Sarita!
Posted 5/1/2008 10:06 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you, sweeties!

I just did my history and physical exam...man, I feel bad for those poor standardized patients who have to endure endless exams by moronic medical students. All in the name of learning, I suppose..anyway, I did fine, although I was slow (I consider that a good thing - who wants a doc who goes too fast and misses something?!) although halfway through I thought I was going to have to run out of the room to have the big D! I managed to hold it instead! :)
Posted 5/1/2008 10:43 PM (GMT 0)
Good for you Sarita. Please come and practice in the Mid West. OK, I know too much to ask Huh!!
Posted 5/2/2008 2:54 AM (GMT 0)
Congratulations!
Btw, I'm sure you took EXCELLENT notes on Bedside manners. Maybe a course should be taught to all Gastros!

Matthew
Posted 5/2/2008 5:09 AM (GMT 0)
Just checking in Sarita... its 1 am here and I am finishing up my IWP (law school thesis). I'm passing it in some time tomorrow and will be here awhile. Hope you are getting a quick breather or some sleep before hitting the books again!
Posted 5/2/2008 6:11 AM (GMT 0)
Congratulations Sarita! Well Done! It is SOOOO much more of an accomplishment with a person with so many challenges and barriers in the way....it not only takes intelligence, but an incredible amount of determination, courage, strength of character....all of which are going to make a far better doctor in the end. ! We are so proud of you.
Posted 5/2/2008 7:21 AM (GMT 0)
Well Fitz, I don't have another exam for a whole two-and-a-half days, so today I went out and bought my wedding shoes! Diarrhea sure wasn't going to stop me from doing that, LOL
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