Celey,
I don't know how much you know about drugs and stuff,but, it is important to differentiate between becoming dependent on a drug versus abusing the drug. If you need a medication for pain, and you need to use it regularly, your body will need more after a while to provide the same relief. This is normal, and is just your liver becoming more efficient at processing the drug. At this point you are dependent, and physically addicted. You will have physical withdrawal, too, if you stop abruptly. But you are not abusing the medication.!!! A drug abuser uses the mental effects of the pain medicine--the "high". The abuser becomes physically and emotionally dependent on the drug , and will then "crave" the "high".
When a pain patient's pain is better, they will taper down from the medication and forget about it. A drug abuser keeps looking for the "high". There is a big big difference, and it is sad to see how many doctors don't really appreciate this.
I do understand how you might be worried, since you have seen drug abuse close up, in your family, and if you are worried about abusing it yourself, maybe. But that is so not a reason to suffer in pain. Cross each bridge when you come to it.
Pix
please hang in there!!