Depressed and Need some Advice or Experiences

crohnspatient13 said...
...but i can just picture myself just going to my room in between all of my classes and laying around and not hanging out with anyone! haha depressing huh

I was in a single & it was not like this at all.  You don't need to be in the same room as people to have friends!  there are students everywhere and, honestly, it is highly unlikely that you will randomly be assigned a room with the people who will be your best friends anyway.  On my freshman hall there was only 1 room where the roommates were really good friends.  Everybody else either tolerated their roommates or grew to dislike them but that's what happens when you are forced into the same space.  Having a single was really good for me. 

crohnspatient13 said...
yeah im debating requesting it more and more, do you think it's two late that we already have our room assignments? i mean its probably worth at least asking because if not im in a forced triple, meaning a room built for two people with three people living in it. so one bed is a top bunk with the desk and dresser shoved under the the other two beds are bunked for one top and one bottom. i already asked my roommates if i can have the bottom one because i told them i get up to go to the bathroom during the night. thats all i said so they dont know why (i dont want them to judge me before they meet me) and they seemed okay but didnt give a definitive answer. what they dont know is that i get up to go to the bathroom at least 5 times a night! theres no way im having a top bunk! ill kill myself cause 1/2 the time im only 1/2 awake anyway!

I think you should at least see if it is an option.  There are people who specifically deal with issues similar to this and I'm sure they would accommodate you if you ask.  I've seen it happen at my school even mid-semester. 

So when I had my single I lofted my bed anyway to give myself more space in the room.  I became an acrobat by the end of my first year and was able to instantly flip out of bed and to the bathroom without even opening my eyes since I had so much practice!

crohnspatient13 said...
haha yeah i really hope they'll let me have a single now that we are talking about it. the one thing that stinks is that me and my two roommates met on facebook and were trying to get in the same room so ill feel a little bad ditching them but im sure they wouldnt mind a double anyway.

and is it weird that i feel a little guilty not telling then upfront i have crohns? cause part of me feels like they think im someone im not and when they find out im sick they will be disappointed and feel like they got "stuck" with me

maybe i have too much faith in society but I would hope that people don't define you simply as the person with Crohn's.  I'm sure you have more to offer than that and nobody would be disappointed (unless you are socially defective beyond repair).  plus people in college are *generally* more understanding of things like this. 

you don't have to come out and say you have crohn's if you don't want to but I'm sure it will be known soon enough.  it's nothing to be ashamed of and if people think less of you for it, I feel sorry for them for being such idiots   

did you have a single room? and were they able to make accommadations after the semester started? what have been some of your experiences with them?

wow, that's great of them. and is it just a coincidence that one of your roommates is blind or were you put together because you all filed for "disability"?

that's good, yeah as of now i'm put on the third floor... we have a elevator but in my mind that seems like just one more place to get stuck in to have an accident :(... i hope i'm close to a bathroom in my room or if they do give me a single i hope i am as well!

as b-12 you should take injections because with crohn's we can't absorb it thru our gut. it's a monthly injection into a muscle and it is a pretty ruby red liquid if that counts for anything:) diet for me is avoiding things i have had problems with in the past and anything that looks like it's not gonna be digested and fit thru my inflammed intestines. Rest and sleep are very important and it's hard at 18 to accept that ( i was diagnosed at 16 so i understand) but get plenty of it. If i wake up and feel like crap i go back to sleep. Big thing for college: make friends in all your classes that you get notes off of if you miss a class ( i'm in nursing school and it works wonders to have friends to get the handouts for me when i can drag myself to class) Get up early for school so you can allow yourself time to acquainted to how you are feeling that day and adjust yourself accordingly. Get a second opinion. How has the humira been working? And disclosure has worked for me but maybe that's because I am in the medical field. I tell people, "yeah i have crohn's" and if they don;t know what it's all about i give them a rundown. I basically say my digestive system is trying to digest itself. they get the point. It's can be embarrassing disease but only if you let it. I've always been very open about it cause If i'm ok with this wacky disease what choice does that give people around me. I don't do it for sympathy but understanding.
as for the boyfriend thing, if he loves you as it seems he does, then he loves you and in you is this awful disease that was your crappy ( pardon the pun) luck to get. Love is understanding. It sucks when you are young but as you get older you will realize that you are not the disease you just happen to have it. It causes turmoil in your life and believe me, after 10 years i still curse it almost everyday, but you are still the beautiful, intelligent, funny , sweet, caring loving person you have always been, just stronger and more empathtic to those who suffer because thru the pain and the uncertainty you find out who you really are. This disease can threaten to strip you of your pride and confidence but you can't let it. Instead meet it head on with humor and grace despite the tears and seemingly unrelenting pain. Good luck to you and feel free to email me of AIM me. i am always willing to talk and more importantly listen.
peace,