Resorting to tears

  Last night was a bad night for me.  The new developments in symptoms of my CD made me anxious, a bit scared and just down right depressed me.  So I cried.  It didn't help anything but at least I got some of the emotions out with the tears.  My husband thinks I need to go and see a psychiatrist.  I told him I was just having a bad day and crying was the way I felt like dealing with it on that bad day.  I know that many of you are far more worse off than I am in respect to ours CD but sometimes, I need a feel sorry for myself day.  Am I the only one out there who resorts to tears?

Hi i tend to bottle things up about my crohns sometimes (because i don't want to worry my family) i recently felt like everything was getting on top of me and how long its taking to get sorted out and had agood cry and felt sorry for myself i feel better afterwards though you have to relieve the stress some how hope you are feeling better now Bev x

Geez. There's nothing wrong with crying. It's healthy, and often much better than bottling things up.

Mind you, if you start crying a few times every day for weeks on end, then your husband would be justified in being concerned, but the occasional sob is no problem .

I hope things start improving for you soon.

Ivy.

Sweetie...we all have them. Feels like the that well of mental and emotional strength is filled up and we flood over. I'm not a big cryer. I HATE it when I do it. I never cried as a kid. I cried when I had depression. I cried when I spent three months in a hospital and for weeks before that...when I thought every doctor I saw was going to let me die when they didn't have anything to tell me. I cried when I got well and went through PTSD. Then I cried when I kinda knew...haha in my gut that whatever "IT" was...it was back and I was going to be sick AGAIN. Then they told me it was Crohns. Now...I still hate crying. I still try to put it off and focus on other things...books, happy thoughts, anything and everything else. But then...sometimes I have to face that my life is so much changed...that nothing will ever be the same again...and then I cry. I hide it when I do. No use trying to explain that I ache in my soul from what this disease has taken from me (the most painful being my ability to have children without a fertility specialist...which I can never afford with all the medical expenses I have now and am currently paying for). I'm unsure if I'll ever own my own home with my husband because of the monetary issues this disease has caused us. I'm sure at some point in my life...I'll have a brand new USED car...always dreamed of owning a brand new one.

Still...I get past it all...and focus on healing myself inside and out, toenails to soul...and crying can help with the healing. So I hope you realize some great things still will happen. Some happen to me every now and then...and then I don't even think of the illness or the sadness or anything else...except those wonderful things. I hope something great happens soon for you too.

Thank you ALL for your kind words and encouragement. I think that I'm constantly in the doing everything for my husband and kids mode and then I get to the point of exhaustion and then have a bad crohns day and that's it - my body says "enough - have a good cry - get some sleep - and take care of yourself for a few hours." I think I just have to accept the fact that for one, I'm getting older and my body keeps reminding me of that (my brain thinks I'm still 29 - really though, I'm 47 - ha ha) and my crohns isn't ever going to go away (which I've always known) so I just need to ride out this newest storm. I felt better just getting it out there and getting some feedback from you all. Thank you again.

Joie1 - I drive a 13-yr old mini-van. That's the last vehicle I ever had that was new. I work 2 jobs just to stay above water. My husband has been out of work for over 3-yrs now. I've accepted it and whenever I think about owning a new vehicle, I just think about how awful the monthly payments are and how much my insurance will go up. It does cost alot having to deal with this disease. The prescriptions alone can break anybody. I'm thankful to have a job with insurance. You're not alone and feel free to vent it out at anytime.......

conker21 - go ahead and cry. It does feel better the next day.... :)