OUCH! INSIDE MY BUTT HURTS!

I need help! I so don't want to go into Emerge. But something tells me I'm going to have to tomorrow.
I have adhesions or whatever inside my rectum. They have bothered me before from time to time, but I think its a battle that I am slowly loosing! It seems to be getting worse. I am starting to avoid eating and that's not good. Can anyone relate?
I so don't want to get a temp. ostomy. I am afraid that is what the doctors are going to tell me.
If only there was something else that I could try. I have been using zinc oxide cream & 2% xylocain jelly. i am squirming around like a wierdo, I can't sit still. I hate this so much. It dosen't matter what I eat, it all has to come out in the end and that's the problem.
My rectum can't heal. i keep thinking that I need iron infusions again cause i haven't had iron since november.
I am anemic, and i get my blood checked once a mth. They say its low but not that low.

I have a good job now, just started - and I don't want to loose it. I hate this disease so much. It seems to always break me down when things start to get good. I can't win.

What should I do? Why is life so unfair?

Have they ever given you proctocream, protosol, or any other cortisone rectal cream? I had five fissures and raging internal and external hemorrhoids. The Proctosol and the lidocaine jelly really helped. I can't see why the cortisone ointments wouldn't help reduce the inflammation in your bottom. These creams come with a short applicator that you affix to the tube and insert into the rectum. That way the ointment gets to the intended area.

Thanks for the replies! Much appreciated!