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Posted 4/30/2011 2:07 AM (GMT 0)
I have always been a plump chick.. and an Outstanding Cook! I love to entertain and feed my friends!

Since I started getting sick last July I have lost 40 pounds. Fear not I had it and more to loose.( So I dont look Etheopian at all).

Anyway.. I used to be swayed by food ads on the TV, and we all know every other add is about food. I looked forward to shopping and planning nice menues for the week. Kept the pantry fully stocked for the month etc. I even thought about writting my own cook book since everyone begs for an invite to eat at our home.

Now.. If I eat too much it hurts.. If I eat the wrong thing it hurts... If I eat what I want it hurts! Food is now associated with pain in my head. I look at things like I never saw them befor. The joy of cooking a nice meal is now replaced by... If I eat that its going to hurt me!

I have come to understand how young girls get eating disorders now. Where they associate eating with gaining weight, I now associate eating with pain and discomfort.

We had company for my husbands Bday last night. Hot dogs and hambugers on the grill... and all I could think about was Oh this is going to hurt me later!

I guess the moral of this story is that I now understand how eating disorders get started.

Sadly food is no longer my friend confused

Posted 4/30/2011 2:31 AM (GMT 0)
Sorry you've figured that part of this disease out, but it's one true certainty.
I have hated food most all my life...and stop for a second and think about when it is that food is at center stage--every occasion has food as a centerpiece...holidays, graduations, birthdays, first dates, breakfast, lunch, and dinner....I have come full circle...when and if I eat, it's gotta be good...if it's going to rip me apart, it had better be worth it....especially now, if it's going to be my last meal...would really suck if it was crap. Hoping it's a rare venison steak with baked potatoe...unfortunately the state frowns on making sure that there's venison on hand year round. :)
New developement here...actually two...I tried the chat last week and my computer wouldn't let me...I'll try and work on the 'why not' when I can find the time...issue that really bothers me is my stoma has turned a nice leathery white over half its surface area...thinking that this is a bad sign, but truly never have seen this and I've been through every other possibility crohns has ever come up with. Not overly concerned as I hurt like there's no tomorrow everyday and still randomly hit the floor a couple times a week, so thinking although odd, I doubt I'll die from a white out...
on the plus side of town--put new plugs, points and condenser in my bike...didn't have time to start it tonight...my buddy's wife came home and halted operations...hoping to start it tomorrow...want so much to ride. Bike is a 77 kawasaki kz750 I rebuilt with my son six years ago...she started acting up last fall so I tore it down and am now just getting her back to gether...tonight was the last little bit left.
Tomorrows a new day boys and girls...enjoy it.
Posted 4/30/2011 2:41 AM (GMT 0)
Good to hear from you Frosty! I was wondering where you were lately. Its a good thing that you are getting your bike back in order! Cool!
Yea its a hard thing for a plump chick to turn on food. But you are right I always have put food and the menu as the focal point of any social event. Spending hours coming up with just the right combination to tempt my friends with. Now I just look at it as a source of pain. What is it that I am going to put in my mouth that is going to hurt the least.
Oh well change is a good thing! Sadly the Doctors are getting all of my needed new wardrobe money.
Hope you can come and chat next week on Thurs.
Kisses
H
Posted 4/30/2011 3:22 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Heather. We seem to have some things in common. I also am a "plump chick", I also got sick in July. I was a full blown foodie. What a cruel disease for a foodie to get! I (did?) love to cook. And eat. Now food hurts. I just can't seem to always remember before it goes in that, food hurt!. I blame the prednisone for that. I guess I just wanted you to know that I do know how you are feeling.
Posted 4/30/2011 5:03 AM (GMT 0)
now you eat to live, not live to eat. It sooooo sucks, but you get use to it. good luck with everything.. we are here for you.
Posted 4/30/2011 12:35 PM (GMT 0)
I'm a foodie too. I have an entire floor to ceiling bookcase of cookbooks and have a subscription to every food magazine. I read them like other people read novels. I love to cook and feed people. But sadly like most of us, I can no longer eat a lot of the foods I would like to. I try to adapt a lot of the foods so that I can eat them (leave out offending veggies!), but if I am having a bad day, or like now, recovering from surgery, no food is my friend. In February I got a blockage and was released from the hospital for a month until I returned for my resection. In that month, I stocked my freezer with casseroles, pot pies, soups, meatballs, chili, cookies, bread, basically we ate from the freezer for weeks and are still pulling food out once or twice a week. The funny part was that I couldn't really check the seasonings on any of the food because I was on a liquid only diet. I was really worried about some of the stuff. My day to day cooking I don't use recipes, I just toss and mix, so it was a bit of a gamble. So far I have only found that the meatballs/meatloaf could have used a bit more salt, easily corrected when eating. I guess all my years of cooking by intuition has paid off, now I'm tasting by intuition!
Posted 4/30/2011 2:57 PM (GMT 0)
I know what you mean but you get used to it. Like I used to love pizza I would eat it at least twice a week but since my Crohns started pizza became a trigger and I hated it. So I hadn't ate any pizza for 3 months and yesterday was craving some and ate 2 slices and I was full and it was just another food not like before that I savored it and would eat 4-5 slices where I was stuffed. When I ate those 2 slices yesterday I was full and I didn't get any symptoms afterwards because the problem was probably the frequency and amount and medicine probably helps too.
Posted 4/30/2011 5:02 PM (GMT 0)
ITA with all of you. I do love to cook and I do love to eat good food. I think I eat healthier now with a built-in reminder that over-indulging will be baaaaad later (or even while still at the table, LOL). When Passover ended Tuesday I went out for pizza and was so miserable the whole rest of the night and into the next day.

I still love to prepare good food, but I'm much more wary now of things that other people might like a lot. So maybe my family eats fewer legumes or high-fat foods....they don't seem to mind too much. I know they are sad we don't have so much junk in the house and we seldom go out for ice cream. I think they'll survive.

What bums me out the most is I take little pleasure in food shopping anymore (too tiring, too frustrating to find stuff that I actually want to eat).
Posted 4/30/2011 5:12 PM (GMT 0)
yep my family does not eat all that bad stuff anymore either( much healthier for them in the long run) But I do "let" them go out and get crap, once in awhile. but I'll stay home when they do that.
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