Hi Lamb,
You go right ahead and have a "pity party", we have all been there. I am so glad that you made it home, it reminded me of times when that has happened to me, that is why I keep a plastic grocery bag in my glove compartment.
I will be 61 this week and I too worry about how Crohn's will affect me as I get up there, one thing that keeps worrying me though, is, can I make it up my stairs to the bathroom when I am in my 80's.
No one on this site will ever fault you from feeling sorry for yourself when you are feeling down in the dumps, we know how you feel and if you need to vent some more, go right ahead, I know you will get some real support from people here.
Take care and try and keep your chin up, we are rooting for you Lamb.