I'm so bored of seeing Crohn's represented as a bathroom issue. Personally I literally could not agree more with this sentence:
If Crohn's was just about running to the bathroom frequently I could deal with that.I would happily return to a time when Crohn's was nothing other than running to the bathroom a few times a day. No pain, no fevers, no strictures, could eat anything I wanted, still felt well in myself. Absolute doddle compared to nowadays.
I'll describe my last flare-up briefly. It involved many, many visits to the bathroom, but much of the time I barely passed anything. However, whether I passed a lot or a little or virtually nothing, each BM would leave me doubled up in agony from anything from 10 minutes to an hour. Then, oh dear god, the burning backside pain. I think I must have developed anal fissures, because it got to a point where it literally felt like a million minute glass shards were embedded in my rear end and I would have flecks of blood on the tissue paper:
that also was sheer agony.
Previously, I also have had obstructions, fevers (even low-grade ones are debilitating; higher ones make you feel like death), overwhelming fatigue. I have been lucky to have not yet experience the dubious joy of fistulas and abscesses. But I did develop an overwhelming fear of eating, to the point of developing an ED; I can thank the Crohn's for that. I can also thank it for robbing most of the joy of eating for me; I no longer give a crap about
going out to restaurants, and that used to be literally my favourite thing in life. It took years but Crohn's finally did it, it finally stopped me caring about
food. These days I'd take a frikking pill 3x a day, if it ensured me my daily 2000 calories and be done with it.
So yeah... Running to the toilet is a really, really, really minor aspect of Crohn's for me. The debilitating fatigue, pain, and upcoming ileostomy weighs far more heavily on my mind than a bit of pain-free diarrhoea which is over in 2 seconds.
Post Edited (NiceCupOfTea) : 1/8/2013 6:45:44 PM (GMT-7)