Posted 4/28/2013 3:32 PM (GMT 0)
Yeah, I have found that most doctors really don't like giving out a lot of info, as though they think you are too stupid to understand or it's none of your business. My current GI is much better than the norm in that respect, which is one reason why I like him, but in the past doctors have been as tight-lipped as top secret government workers bound by the Official Secrets Act.
That's partly the reason why I underestimated my disease for so long. I dunno what my first ever scope showed (enough to diagnose Crohn's, that's all I can say), but in 2007 my scope report said I had 'severe and extensive' disease, and my 2010 scope was even worse. The first doctor I saw after that scope took it seriously: she said that my Crohn's was 'really, really bad' and that I would die if I didn't take anything for it (that appealed to my sense of melodrama <_<). But she vanished into thin air (normal practice in this hospital) and the next doctor I saw was so patronising. He just smirked the whole time as though he were talking to a child, and said something like it looked worse than it really was.
I could've hit him, but I didn't. I just left that hospital and joined my present one, which fortunately was much better. My GI was good, he got me onto Remicade quickly, instead of pissing about with yet more 6MP/Imuran, which hadn't worked before and wasn't going to work now. (Nor did Remicade as it so happened, but neither of us were to know that.)
Hope is good, but I'm not sure what I'm feeling is as positive as 'hope'. I guess I still have the anger and regret. To be fair, it's not solely the Crohn's and losing my colon - there are other things too. The one thing that would be fantastic beyond belief is if new colons could be grown from our stem cells and reattached. I sometimes wished I lived 100 years in the future...