Posted 3/27/2014 11:49 PM (GMT 0)
Yes, I was on the Cimzia and alone... It just wasn't cutting it. Since I had had a degree of success with other biologics and 6mp my GI at the time thought it would be good to try again. So, I took the 6mp with Cimzia for about 3-4 months. It worked. I know that it takes about 3 months to really start to see a full effect, but I could tell it was working and had brought me to a level I could feel good about so I just stopped it on my own and prayed that the Cimzia would maintain what I had just gained. It did.
You know, something to remember, which oddly enough never ever occurred to me.... 6mp is a chemo therapy drug!! If someone had cancer and was utterly wiped out, no one would bat an eyelash. It would just be a given that their meds would wipe them out. Well, this is no different. It's the same drug, with the same rotten side effects. It's just treating a different disease. I used to feel so guilty that I couldn't function. That it was all I could do to feed my kids. That I had to lay around on the couch and actually take naps. Then i realized the reality if the situation and it hit me like a ton of bricks! I just wanted to cry because I would have never let myself feel the pressure to function if I had realized it was taking the same toll on me as someone with cancer. My hubby has always been supportive, but I don't think even he understood how horrible it was. Anyway, that may just be my emotional baggage, but... I'm throwing it out there because its worth noting.
These meds are heavy. They have great potential to help us and I think it's definitely been worth it for me. I hope that it is for you too, but yes.., it really does wipe you out big time. You may decide that it's not worth it. Or, you may tell yourself it's worth the 3-6 month sacrifice to see if you can go into remission. I hope that it works for you. And I hope that you won't have to stay on it for long.
I'm here for you! You are definitely not alone. I'm just sorry any of us has to deal with this garbage. It definitely sucks.