ABUSIVE PARENTS

It's really hard for me to even speak about this...My parents abuse me in every way possible.It's starting to affect my health and i'm really scared!My parents abuse me usually emotionaly,but from yesterday physucally too!They often call me names,wish i was bigger,point out stuff from my desiese,don't let me do normal teen stuff,say i'm not normal,say that they are "telling me the thruth",making me sad,low self esteemed,lonely,felling not loved.And yesterday hitting me and kicking me...Just me because "i was driving them crazy" with the thought that i have to go on vacation by myself.My dad is more abusive than mom.He told me that the place i'm going too is crap and that i will freeze there(because it's a mountain hotel) and i tried to tell him that there surely is going to have some heating stuff.My mom always wants me to stay home.I don't know why.So she tried to reason with him for me not to go.It all ended up he beating up my mom and then kicking me on the butt out of the room.I felt sudden pain and i thought that something had happen with me.Since i had fistule and fisure problems.My stern is hurting really much.He doesn't care about my health.And he doesn't care about me probably.Whenever i try to tell him that he hurts me and i feel really bad about it,he laughts and tells me that he bought me all the stuff i want and that i eat food.He says he isn't bad towards me and when i continue to tell him,him uses force to make me stop.I'm scared and i feel like it will get worse.What person will i end up being?Untill i go to collage and leave this place?Help me...

Yes, you need to tell an adult. Does your school have any counselors or advisors?

From answering your posts earlier, I remember that you're not in the US, Canada, or the UK. We have no idea what the laws are in your country concerning child abuse or spousal abuse (you said your mother was beaten by your father). It may not be against the law where you live, even though it may be very wrong in our eyes, so I don't know what would be the best thing for you to do. I don't want to give you advice to do something that in my country makes sense, but where you live it could make things far worse for you.

I also remember that you are a young so I'm not sure I understand how you can go on vacation without your parents' approval. Are you going with a school group or actually alone without anyone?

Hello JaSanne yes i'm going with a school group!And i talked to my parents again.In my country (Bulgaria) it's fine to hit kids,but it's not normal for me...I can't tell anyone,because i'm afraid of them doing some serious things!If someone calls child protection i will be taken away!I don't want that :( my parents are sure rough but i can't just abandon them.I'm sure we will work it out.I told my friend though she said she will help me cope with this.I'm staying positive anyway!

I'm so sorry. Remember that just because somebody says something bad about you, that does not make it true. This is a problem with your parents, not you! You have done nothing wrong and you do not deserve to be treated so harshly. Stay positive, do not let the actions of others impact your self worth....lean on your friend if you need to, that's what friends are for.