Can't sleep again may develope continence :(

Ohhhh noooooooooo.!!!I just saw some strange skin tearings in my anus.I don't know if they have been there before,i think they are just skin left from the operations doctors have previosly done to me.I'm scared if it's a new problem!!!!I think not because Humira helps me a lot!!!In remmission for 11 and a half months now!And i don't have a fever,puss,blood.But i do have an inflamated buttocks.I was on vacation and i packed and i couldn't wash after pooping so maybe it's because of that because it's just the skin around the anus that is inflamated.And my blood counts are good...What do you think???Don't tell me to see a doctor,because i know it's not a fistule i just want an opinion.

It could just be a fissure. A fissure is a little tear in the skin near the anus and it is painful, but not the same thing as a fistula. Can you put some petroleum ointment on it? Or some baby cream? That might help it heal up.

UPDATE ON HOW I AM TODAY-So i went to poop today and it was formed (the stool) and i didn't feel any butt pain or puss or blood or anything,i don't have a fever,buttocks is looking good!Washing to moisterize the skin(sorry if i mispelled that) and applying baby cream to soften the skin tearing area,i am sure that these tearings were always here,it's just that i haven't seen them because they are a little in the anus and not on the entrance and that they were leftover skin tears from my previous surgeryes i have had before :) feeling fine and ready for another day without any worry.It's been almost a year since i am chron free and i enjoy every moment that occurs me.Good and bad.The feeling beaing home sleeping in your bed for many many night is sooo good!!!The feeling of freedom and no health stress!!!!Only hapiness!!Went smimming,sea vacation,school trip with awesome party and adventures,finished elemantary school,started high school,had my birthday,had my realtives's birthdays,talked with an american person,went to the theatre,started rainbow looming,attended acting clasess,went to soo many walks in the park and other places i enjoyd the air the grass the sky the birds the EVERYTHING,went to the fair and went on the crazy ballerina ride :D ,made new friends,had so many laughts and awesome situasions,enjoyd the simple joys like taking a warm shower at home and just being with my family watching TV and eating popcorn,watching my 3 year old cousin grow and learn,going on walks with friends and family,going on outdoors dinners with family,my bro turned 18 and had an awesome party,had a halloween party,watched the winter turn into spring and then summer and then fall and again winter,made awesome abstract paintings,ate mcdonalds since so much time :D,ate cotton candy that turns into bubble gum,watched so many youtube funny stuff and finding new songs,just enjoying the WESOME YEAR I HAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!The best one i have ever had :') the one i will always want to turn back and just live it all again.I love life and want to be healthy all my life!No more surgeries and stress and colnoscopies and other bad stressfull health stuff.I want to be free just as i am now my entire future life.I'm thankfull for Humira it saved my life.I hope i'm able to use it 20 or even more years!!And that someone finds a cure for this terrible desiese!God thank you for the moments and the hapiness you gave me and continue to give me!Thank you guys too for all the support you give me :) be healthy and live life to the fullest enjoy the simple moment and the time being be happy even in your bad days and be thankfull to God for all that he is giving us and with our love he will keep us happy and chron free forever!Amen :)

Thank you Stef17 i hope you are healthy too God bless you :)