Awww, I wish I could give ya a big hug!
Whenever I get chided for my twice-per-year indulgence in buffalo chicken wings, or get in a sassy mood and WILL have a glass of beer or wine thank-you-very-much, I simply put a twinkle in my eye and remind my non-Crohnie's that "Life is too short!" To date, I've never had anyone challenge me when making that declaration while I'm enjoying a food on my no-no list. ;-)
You are NOT alone. There are many of us around the globe, our head on the pillow at night, quietly wondering if the next day, week, or month will bring about
the next big flareup. We're all survivors, and in a twisted/painful way, one big family!