Back to square one

I feel like I have gone 360 in the last year it has been a long trip and now I am back where I began.
Plus the very lovely joint pains I have now.

I am done with all the pred my only meds are Asacol which I were on a year ago and Remi which is so not working for me :(

I feel like I have gone a whole 360 and I am back to square one, I have a new doc, I have to get a new drug, the only thing I can say that I am better off now is that I am not working and my anxiety is so much better.
And frankly I don't give a dam anymore.
I feel like everything I do gets me nowhere. I am so sick and tired of trying to contact the docs to let them tell me to call again after few days an see how it is then. I am sick of having my face look like a balloon, I am sick of the nurses who have to take at least 4 tries to get a IV up and going. I sick of all the constant toilet trips that are making me weak and powerless and the food that is making me sick. I am sick of all the bruises I have people think my guy is hitting me :( and he is not !!ir
I am sick of my hair falling out and being so week and stiff in the joints that it hurts getting out of the car.
I am sick of all this bullcrap.

there you have it :)

I wish all of you are having a better day than me.
Plus my nose hurts so bad at the moment full of sores (I think it is not Crohn's related, maybe the slow healing) and I have a super busy week coming up :(
And I start prepping for colonoscopy on sunday..

I hope you fell better soon.