Dealing with an abscess or fistula: a guide for novices

Hi guys,I am new in this site.i was just checking about fistula disease and I could find lots of informations here.I couldn't stop myself from writing after reading the painful stories of people.I am also a victim of this disease.I had my first surgery done on may 2012.Now it's already been a year and I am still struggling with it.I am an overseas student in Australia and its really hard for a student to manage everything by yourself.I live with my friend.My parents are not here.After having perianal abscess surgery on may I went for holiday on July.Though I wasn't healed but I could travel so I went back to my country to visit my family.after the surgery it healed in my right side but there's always draining in my left side.I went to see the doctor in my country as well.The doctor put some stitches in the left one which was the biggest mistake of all.The wound could only heal outside but not inside.then I came back with the same draining butt.😢😢I had ho through another surgery.then they did colonoscopy and everything.I have a seton put in before 5 weeks.But it's still draining.I always have to wipe it out to make it dry.As I have to manage everything by myself,I have to work for rent,expenses,school fees etc.This disease has really destroyed my daily life as well as love life.Every night I cry just because of this disease.I don't know when I am gonna recover.The doctor said he still needs to do more surgery.I am really sick of it.Not being able to b positive.What Sud I do??😢😢