Can things just go easy for a change?

Thanks for sharing. We all know how much this sucks.

Hugs

I am feeling you brother. Hang tuff.

I don't try to surpress my feelings but it seems like I am often numb.  I think to myself where are my emotions?  When I was so desperately sick in February and early March it seemed like I cried all the time, usually from depression mixed with pain. I am doing a lot better now but still feel completely licked.  Can't travel.  I used to like to hike to remote places and lakes to fish but I am afraid that the physical stress will cause my flare to get worse.  It has happened before, when I was relatively healthy.  Nothing else seems like fun to me and even the fishing I am not sure about.  (another sign of depression?) 

At least we understand that we are depressed, because of chronic illness.  I think that is half the battle.  Professional counsel might be a good idea if it gets to be too much to handle on your own.   Give yourself a break too.  You aren't a freakin super hero, just a guy fighting a tough tough battle.  Maybe not endless though.  Lots of technology on the horizon.  I AM optimistic for a cure despite 35 years of illness.

Good luck

Post Edited (FunGuy) : 4/21/2010 8:06:54 AM (GMT-6)

I agree with Sniper's post really. The anger will eat you up from inside and not touch your former employers. I say this as one who hasn't been in your particular situation but who has had lifelong issues with depression, and bad anger issues for the last 10 years. (Not caused by Crohn's, but obviously coincided with it.) Anger can't be dropped like a stone, but if you are aware of it you can work on letting it go over a period of time. Depending on personality/personal circumstances you may never be able to let it go entirely, but you don't have to be a slave to it. Also, although it sounds like you repress your anger rather than express it, angry people are no fun to be around. At all. For those who verbally/physically lose their temper frequently, this is something they ought to use as motivation to become less angry.

Anyway, although I don't know you, I do feel for your struggles. I hope things get better.

(Agree with FunGuy's post in its entirety too, and identify with the first paragraph.)

Cheerdad why is it that everything in life with crohn's such a battle? My battles are different from yours but I feel your pain too. One day at a time is the only way I don't go crazy. Just deal with what you can today thats all. good luck!