flowery- I would first like to say to you that I can understand how you feel as far as not feeling so pretty anymore. I was always known for being very pretty plus being a loving and caring person. When I first started losing so much weight people were talking about
me saying they think I'm doing drugs and my kids friends would tease them and ask "what happened to your mom, she use to be so pretty and now she looks like she is on crack". My kids would get upset and say that I am sick and then their peers started saying I have AIDS. I was getting so depressed with all the comments but my husband would always tell me that I am still beautiful (love is blind I guess).
I decided that just because I didn't feel well or look well that I didn't have to look that way so my husband took me shopping for clothes (because all I could wear is PJ pants because I had NO clothes that fit anymore from all the weight loss). When we went I hated it so much because I had to look for the smallest size clothes they had and I didn't know how I was going to look. I even had to get padded gel bra's because I lost all my chest. The first day I got dressed and did my hair I walked out of the room and my kids and husband looked like they were in shock. They all kept saying how beatiful I looked and it made me feel so good. The sad thing though was when we went out and bumped into people that haven't seen me in a long time they all responded with "OMG, are you sick...you have lost so much weight", well my self esteem went straight down the drain in the matter of seconds. I feel as women we feel we need to be so concerned about
our outer appearance but what really and truly matters is who we are on the inside. I came to realize one day that if I can get this crohn's under control and enjoy my life with my kids and husband that would mean more to me then anything in the world.
I am suppose to start steroids and 6mp next week and I don't know how the steroids will change how I look but I have come to realize that I probably will never look how I did 2 years ago but just feeling healthy again (I pray the medications work) and getting out in the world again spending time with my kids and husband, laughing, and just being happy will mean more to me then anything. People are going to talk about
you no matter what, even when you look good there are people who will want to put you down. What matters is trying to find all the good things you have and when you do that it will make you shine.
Sniper- I am new to the forum but have been reading a lot of different post and I have read a few that you have wrote on. I just want to tell you that I think you are a wonderful person because you have always made me laugh and put a smile on my face. I bet you are absolutly gorgeous
