NCOT,
You are coping. That is why we all come here. I work in a health food store, and would probably leave, but about once a month or so I hear from someone who tells me "you are not going to believe this, but I haven't eaten in about a month". I also found someone to believe me. Thank God I had the Internet and sites like this that kept me a little sane.
Please try to stop stressing yourself over this, stress can be more damaging than food for most of us. I did the SCD (not so well, I might add), and it helped me a great deal. However, my GI was right when he said he knew this died achieved remission for myself and many of his patients, but for everything I avoid to maintain remission there are ten things that I am not yet even aware of.
Oh, after following SCD poorly for two years, I can enjoy some of everything, including the grand kids Birthday cake. Tonight I will do so, but will be careful of the ham, brisket and trimmings that will be first.
I remember the first time I saw you sign on a few years ago. You are a wonderful addition to our group.You have a great attitude, and are allowed to rage and be a little neurotic. It's all part of dealing and coping, and I am glad you will be here to comment one day when I feel the same.
PS If I have any further issues, I will follow the SCD for the remainder of my life. In my case I think it would my best shot at avoiding cancer