I ran away for a bit, but realized that coming here was what was making feel a little better. I really do enjoy sharing with and hopefully helping you guys....you all are really so nice and understanding.
Still feeling pretty blue and pretty frustrated with the other human beings in my life. However, I have decided that I am going to attend the weekend function and just do the "that's nice" conversation and think what I want. If someone wants to drag me into a negative on me conversation, then I guess I will just have to say something. That's what is getting me through...I may not be able to speak my mind at work, but if a friend or acquaintance decides to make negative commentary...then I now feel free to spew on them...that really would be a great release.
My oldest brother had taken his own life and I always worry that great sadness could envelope me too. The difference is......I am going to shout from the hilltops to stay wacky, and fun loving.