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Posted 8/23/2011 12:56 PM (GMT 0)
So I finally got a job, with great benefits. I started last Monday. Although I am not in remission my Crohn's s has been pretty well controlled lately. Well my first week of work must have been too much. I was sick all weekend and so sick by Monday I couldn't get out of bed and already had to miss work. My second week of work and I had to call in sick!

I am so frustrated. We need this insurance. It is really good health insurance and is already effective 9/1 just a little over a week away. Why can't the colon ever cooperate? I was conservative with what I ate all week and went to bed early every night and the colon just doesn't care!

I just feel like I can't win. Something good finally works out and the colon is making it as hard as possible!

I knew you all would understand. Hopefully my new employer does too and doesn't give up on me before 9/1!
Posted 8/23/2011 1:43 PM (GMT 0)
I am so sorry you are feeling so rough. I really feel your pain! I have been off work since 7/1/11 and with this flare I am having a hard time getting better myself. And I work for a wall street firm, so I am also feeling extremely guilty about being out of work so long, and the burden it is putting on my co workers.

But with this darn disease we have no control over it, and can only do what we can do. I hope your boss is understanding and that you get feeling better soon. Hugs!
Posted 8/23/2011 5:07 PM (GMT 0)
Small world Nanners, I also work for a wall street firm. I worked for a smaller firm before this and now my new job is with a mid-size firm.

I hope you get back to normal soon. It stinks that it is so hard for us sometimes to do something like get to work. My mornings are so hard. I get so envious of my fiance that just bounces out of bed each morning, into the shower, has some breakfast and is on his way. I feel like I have worked half a day by the time I just get my self up and to work!
Posted 8/23/2011 9:06 PM (GMT 0)
I am sorry you're having troubles cupcake. I totally understand. I have had so much trouble holding fulltime jobs since I was diagnosed. I haven't had too much time where I've felt stable enough where I could commit to a fulltime job and it seems everytime I get one, coincidentally, my symptoms act up shortly after. Last time I had a fulltime position, it was for an investment company, I started in Nov 10 and I flared in December 10. Luckily, I was vaguely explaining my intesntinal discomfort to my manager and she confided that she had proctitis and after that, we were able to speak quite candidly and joke about running to the toilet like our lives depended on it. She's the first person I met in everyday life who shared this awful IBD diagnosis, it was comforting to meet someone and better yet, she was my manager. Try not to stress, I think stress is what pushes me over the edge. People will understand and while you may not be in top shape right now, you will have long remission in the future and people will realize you're an asset. I am sure they already know. Can you work from home at all? I don't work fulltime now, I work from home and it's much less stressful. Hang in there!
Posted 8/24/2011 12:44 AM (GMT 0)
If it's any inspiration, I've been at my current job for 9 years now. But when I started I was also in the beginning stages of a major long term flare. I know they knew I was ill but no one asked and I didn't volunteer any info. However I did work my behind off to prove my worth -- 2 teenage boys, one ready to head off to college -- I just couldn't lose this job. It's probably all the changes and the stress, give yourself a break when you need to (and can), continue to watch your diet and tell yourself you can do this. I'm pulling for you.
Posted 8/24/2011 1:01 AM (GMT 0)
Oh cupcake, you understand where I am coming from, since you work in the same industry. I work for one of the largest firms, and with larger financial advisors and I so stress about being out so long. And of course this has been one of the worst times in the market history. So I know my coworkers are probably hating me about now. I have been there 22 years, and they know about my Crohns, but I still feel guilty. I try not to worry about it, but it is hard.

Wondering if you are feeling any better? I tend to feel better in the evenings, then wake up feeling like ugh... Today has been a better day for me, but thats becuz my bowels are slower today, hoping I am on to better days, and hoping you are too. I agree stress is not our friend. Hope tomorrow is better for you. Hugs~
Posted 8/24/2011 1:16 AM (GMT 0)
wow! a wall st. reunion. i too WORKED for a wall st. firm til we went into permanent hibernation (hint, hint)...haha
now i work for a large bank...i've hidden my crohn's from everyone although i'n sure some folks think i'm really weird bc of the way i act sometimes...it's made for some awkward situations no doubt. sorry you're not feeling well right off the bat. i've been travelling quite a bit for work and the stress has me feeling pretty bad right now also...i started taking a xanax during the day to try to keep the stress down a bit...i need to relax- if i get uptight then my body usually slugs me good...i wish it was as easy as taking deep breaths...
Posted 8/24/2011 1:26 AM (GMT 0)
Someone once told me that change equals stress. Maybe once you get into a routine with the new job you will feel better. I hope it all works out and you are feeling better soon!

Post Edited (bloated) : 8/23/2011 7:31:51 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 8/24/2011 1:58 PM (GMT 0)
Bloated I have to agree with you. I think that is why I am having a hard time getting back to my normal, because I do not do well with change. I feel like I was doing well with my routine, then I got sick and that screwed everything up. I think if I can get back into that routine, I will begin to feel better again. And hoping its the same for Cupcake too. Hugs!
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