I think I just need a psychologist---someone to talk to or dump on without repercussions. I don't think I need meds...just an outlet. Maybe I just need an empty place where I can scream at the top of my lungs (that's how I fixed a lot of me in my youth--a good yelp).
The thing is this last straw may have been just that...the last straw. I am not sure I can fix me on my own for the first time in my life. I am trying humor - stupid humor and goofy pranks usually lightens me up a lot. I am trying distraction - but everything is still there. And now my gut pain has returned. I actually spoke to my abdomen last night "OK we don't need this right now so go away". Yeah I know I need to care more for the gut issues---but I will likely lose my job if I try to take a lot of time and I am sole support and insurance carrier for us.
So since I am actually thinking about calling my GP for a recommendation (I trust him more than most people on this planet!). Which do you think is most helpful?