Hi Clo - you're absolutely right, I am enjoying life!! I even have managed a small job but I'm still fiercely advocating for a livable income for the disabled. It's an uphill battle but I hope within a year we should be getting an above poverty disability benefit.
Funny - even though covid is raging and I'm still very isolated; I'm the happiest I've even been in life. Over 30 yrs of this IBD hell was enough, that even lockdown didn't bother me in the least. I had my colonoscopy in April and it was absolutely clean! Not even a pseudo- polyp. No evidence of scaring or fistula tracts etc. I got a gold star.
I am not without fear though. It's always lurking underneath. there's no new drug if Stelara fails....what happens then? Anyway, I'm +40lbs heavier and eating everything but gluten. For the most part I stick to a keto diet which I also credit for healing. I still get tired and fatigued though. Working even part time is too much. My body is still fighting itself that I'll never be "normal." But I'm definitely in the "r" word
Your continued struggles make me so unhappy for you (and Minnie) and of course anyone else following in our footsteps. Unless you have a fistula; you have no idea. Same with a RVF - as you know I had a breakdown, and know that I wouldn't be able to handle that kind of trauma again. It really messed me up. I'm sure you have your days too. How do you cope? It's a really tragic and intimate disease....
Interestingly, Ostomy Cure that does the TIES replacement to a bag is now actively recruiting patients in Europe and India. Of course, it's not suitable for crohns - but to have bionic, screw on device, with no external bag is quite remarkable. I hope there's something for us in the works.