Posted 7/8/2023 3:25 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Khoshnam,
I completely understand how you feel. First of, let me assure you, that only because the things below happen to me does not mean you will have the same experiences, everybody is different, but I hope this might help you figuring out what might work best for you. ***Warning, a long story is following*** LOL
When I was first diagnosed in 2002, at age 30, I was in complete denial. Why? Well, after my very first colonoscopy I had no more issues, so I thought that the doc was mistaken (he had no bedside manners either LOL) and ignored the results. about 6 months after that everything came crashing down on me; symptoms after symptoms with pain and lots of it. On top of that, English is my second language, as if I didn’t have enough worries already. Thankfully my husband was at my side with every doc visit I wen to and every surgery I had to go through… I literally owe him my life. Anyhow, with time and patience (including frustration) my doc and I started from them bottom up figuring out what works and what doesn’t.
While she told me what meds to take: starting with Prednisone, Entocort, Asacol, various antibiotics, to Pentassa, Remicade and then my first surgery (I wished I would have done this much sooner). Surgery was another issue by itself. If you ever have to go that rout, make sure you research the doc really well. Only because they are “specializing in Crohn’s” doesn’t mean that they are a specialist in surgery. After the surgery I started taking Imuran and I was doing “well”.
Now I had to figure out how to deal with this new life of mine. I had to learn where all the bathrooms are wherever I went and what foods would make me feel worse. Most of all, I had to learn how to not stress myself out and the best way to handle that was for me to talk openly about my disease. Pretty much anyone knows of my disease but only a few know more of the details than others. I feel if the people around you are educated about the condition the less you have to feel embarrassed or worry.
I admit, it was not easy for many years. Lots of worrying and frustration until I started to get angry at the disease. But one day I simply “had enough” and decided that this disease will not dictate my life. I started a food and symptom diary to figure out patterns. I tried variety’s of OTC meds for the symptoms that could not be managed with the RX…. I have learned when to take the Imodium and when to use the Miralx. In 2015 I had my 2nd surgery (small bowl obstruction). I recovered quickly and added Beano and IBGard for the gassy symptoms and the occasional Bentyl for the cramping.
Then 2016/2017 came around the corner. By then I was convinced that I had things like stress and anxiety pretty well under control “a new life with Crohn’s” but then suddenly my stress level went through the roof. Partly because of work but mainly because of multiple family member died in short succession and the latest at the time pushed me over the edge with my anxiety. Next thing I know I ended in the hospital. In for 2 weeks, out for 2 weeks and repeat 2 more times after that. Eventually I had my 3rd surgery, had my medication changed to Humira and needed to get for the following 6 months iron infusion because I had severe anemia caused by the Imuran.
Since May 2017 I have been on Humira and have never been healthier until April 2023 that is. I am starting to have symptoms starting to flare up, but I am hoping they are only flares and nothing more. Let me safe you the math… I am now in my 50’s but my anger against this disease will not let me waiver from my determination of living MY life the way I want.
To deal with the stress, worries and anxiety you need to find ways to express yourself, try different things, reading, writing, meditation, painting, drawing, fitness, yoga, long walks… it does not matter what it is as long as it makes you happy and calms you down. I always try to live by “If I don’t mind, it doesn’t matter”
With that said, this has been enough rambling but I truly hope it will give you ideas to decide what your next step will be…. and always let your doctor know what is going on with you! If you do not feel comfortable doing that or he/she will not give you the time it is time to find a new doctor.