WOW- vent

Ok so for the last 5 years I have yet to gain remision, and according to my last colonoscopy (last week) I am quite inflammed, so much that the scope actually got stuck.  So the doc wants me to start Humira.. I got the medication in, and for a week now have been tring to get a nurse to come out and show me how to do my first injection(my doc insisted that someone show us how).  So because both me and my husband work in the am we need night time, soo after the fax didnt work and the first nuse couldn't come out at night we have found a RN who can accomidate.. Only one problem, now I'm really scared.  Last night at 9 pm we set up for him to come tonight at 8pm ( I have a final today at 5 so I had to schedule late). well NEways.  I was sorta releived we had bad luck and no one was available.. I know i realy need to start this medication because the asacol and constant entocort are not helping like they should. but I'm scared of so many things.. Will it hurt? if so how bad? Im absolutely terified of needles and have to look away and sing while they stick me. I have to get FOUR shots to day.. FOUR!! thats alot.. and then I dont know what im gonna feel like in the morning and I have to work.. I really wanted to do this on Friday but the rep is only in town today.. he's from 3 hours away. Ok so I feel really stupid for being scared and nervous about this stupid little needle and stupid shot but I'm really freaked out about it.. And now the fact that I'm gonna have to take it until the next step I have to take.. I don't know.. I"m just confused and upset

I'm waiting to start Humira too. I've had 2 years of crud. Just be glad that you at least have the medication in your possession! I've been fighting to get started on it for a month now, and I'm still having major insurance issues. I hate all of this waiting. I still don't know if they are going to approve it or not.

If this works out, I'm going to have to get a nurse to show me how to do it too. I don't know if I'm going to be comfortable with sticking myself. I'd rather have somene else do it. It's just the thought that I know as soon as I push that button, I'm going to stick myself. Eww!!

I hope it works for you.

The anticipation is worse than actually getting/giving the shots. Once you get through the two loading doses, it's only one shot every other week. I find the pain from Crohn's to be much worse than the shot.