I have self esteem issues....

Im pretty depressed right now.

I am trying to lose weight, but it isnt working! (this is mainly because of my medication Im taking for ulcerative colitis). Well, it is working, but it is going very slowly. I want to be thin by september so I can start the school year feeling great about myself but I dont think that will happen :(

I feel fat all the time. I exercise daily. Even when I eat when I am hungry I feel bad!

Is there any way to get myself to relax and stop feeling this way constantly?

I actually eat very healthy and I eat 4-6 small meals a day. But even when I know I am eating normally and healthy, I still feel guilty when I eat. It feels like I have some sort of eating disorder cause I feel guilty when I shouldnt. I know I shouldnt feel bad for eating when I am hungry but I do.

Ive talked to my doctor and he said that the best thing I can do is just get good exercise and it will take time for the weight to come off. Ive already lost weight, but it's just taking much slower than it use to for me and I hate it!

I am too fighting the same battle, an feel guilty no matterwhat i eat. the only excerise i can really do is in the pool. My knees hurt too much. Ieat little snacksthruout the day, but its taking so long for the weight to come off.

last year i gotreas ick and he weiht came off real quik, but once i got better i gained it all back andmore. So i agree the faster you lose the faster it goes back on, so losing slowly is good, the slower it takes to come off the longer it stays off. so i am in the same boat as you, a my self esteem isnt to good, i maybe subitute teaching in the fall, and i dnt really have any clothes to wear , im too big to fit in them.

I know the feeling. I have the same problem. Just a few more inches in the mid section and I could get back in my jeans too. I have been trying, but it really does go slow.

Good luck,

hugs, Karen

I think that once you accept yourself at the weight that you are at, you will be able to quit obsessing about it and start losing weight. I am strugglilng with that right now. I get afraid that if I do accept myself for who I am, I will stay that way. Though I know that not to be true. So we are both in the same boat. I still have yet to buy some clothes that fit me, instead of trying to squeeze into the ones that don't.LOL,. It really isn't funny, but if I don't laugh about it, I get depressed more. Just keep moving. try to stay away from foods and beverages that cause you to gain weight. My friend lost 65 pounds just cutting out the coke and coffee with creamer. Oh if I could just do that. I like beer too which is a no no. But I try to work it off by walking. It is hard, but lilke you said, if we could quit obsessing about it, it would seem much easier.

Best wishes for a lovely day,

hugs, Karen...

Thanks NEM, yeah I may go to a thrift shop and get a few black slacks. And my friend gave me afew nice tops, maybe pick out a few more, if i goet the job i will ask my husbandfor a few bucks to do that, i cant wear shorts to wrok every day.

I miss being in jeans., When got sick as a dog and lost all that wait i was swimming in my jeans(figuratively speaking ofcourse, I have swam litterally in jeans LOL!!) but I lost all the weight being sick, and when it comes of fast like that i goes right back on and more, iwent down to  from  down to decent weight and was looking real good.

But being sick wasnt feeling real good. But once I got better i was able to eat, i wasnt eating becasue i was so sick(gastroparesis). But i got on some good meds to help me, and felt better and started to eat aagin, and the weight just went on real, quick, and I cant get much exercise because my knees hurt real bad, and y back. but right now it mainly my knees, So my pool is my only exercise really and i hate the sun it gives me headaches so i will only go when its overcast out. My gastro who i just saw this week said need to lose weight, well i got quite abit to lose, he said go on high protien low carb diet, but you have to be real careful about that, i get dizzy sometimes when doing that diet in the past, so i cant cut out carbs completly, but I am limited on how i eat my veggies, i have to have them cooked or they make me sick.

Anyways they say the slower it comes off the longer it stays off, i hope i just start getting it off, im at unhealthy weight for my height.