Eating

I think that when you get hungry enough that you will eat. Your stomache will let you know. But for now could you try something like pudding? Or a can of chicken soup? Maybe you have picked up some kind of a bug. There are a lot of stomache bugs going around.

Are you throwing up on purpose? Or is it your stomache? Let us know a little more about the situation so we can help you assess it. Are you depressed? I guess that was a dumb question. Are you over weight? Is that why you are not eating? I know that feeling, I could stand to lose about 50 pounds, even though people say that I don't look over weight, I truly feel that way. But I found out I need to eat four to six times a day with small portions. That is the only way that I can lose weight. If I starve myself, my body goes into survival mode and hangs on to every calorie that I take in.

Let us know a little more about how you feel. I will try to help you come up with a solution.

Hugs, Karen...

Are you taking any medications for depression? When I took prozac I felt like that. I would look at food and gain weight. I switched to effexor. They say that it doesn't make you gain. They say that anyway. I know that a lot of mine is from not walking like I use to before I got fibromyalgia. I use to walk a lot everyday and that kept the weight down.

Are you going to counseling at the moment? I really think that you need to talk to a professional, all I can do is tell you what I think. A counselor could help you stop what you are doing. And just a change in medication, or starting if you aren't taking any, could change the way that you feel and you wouldn't be going through this.

Honestly I don't understand the purging, though I can't say that I haven't been tempted. But I try to eat healthy, close to the earth. Small portions more frequently throughout the day. Also drinking water fills you up and is good for you.

I wish that I knew all the right words for you. I wish that I could help you more than this. I do know how uncomfortable it feels to feel over weight. But if people are telling you that you don't look fat, it is most likely your self image. The doctor told me that I looked okay. And other people tell me that I look okay. But I see myself as fat. So I wonder if you are seeing yourself differently than you are.

Either way, I hope that this has helped you somewhat, I know that I don't have all the answers that you would like and need. I know what you are doing is unhealthy. It is hard on your body and there is stomache acid in the vomit that can eat your esauphagus and your teeth. Plus you wont get any vitamins or nutrients out of the food. Do you have a diet plan? What kind of foods do you eat? Try to eat as healthy as possible. Try to eat slowly and enjoy your food. I have a tendancy to eat fast because I don't want to eat. I am trying to take my time and relax when I eat now. It is hard for me.

I hope that you feel better and can get your diet straight. Keep me posted.

Hugs, Karen

Hey honey thanks for sharing :)

Theres a couple things that could be going on..
Have you always done this?

Firstly you need to think deep and see if there is a reason why you use food the way you do. Maybe it's a psychological thing and you use food to punish yourself for something you feel bad about? Eating disorders can be a substitute for something that a person doesn't want to face.

Also, it really is a disease. If it is, you need to be willing to accept that you suffer from it and go to a doctor to get treatment before it worsens.

Be careful, binging and then starving yourself can cause heart attacks... your body can't handle it.
Either way you should talk to a counselor, if this is a problem you should deal with it right away!

Hope this helps :)
You have all my love & support

I know i still have probelms with it, sometimes i just feel sick and will make m self get rid of it cuz i dont want to feel sick. ANd i am definaltey overweigt, need to lose like 60 pounds.

Hi eyes,

It sounds to me that you are suffering from bulimia and it is time to seek professional help. The burning sensation you are feeling in your throat is a symptom of bulimia called acid reflux. When you repetitively purge/throw-up, you are causing damage to your esophagus by exposing it to the acids in your stomach. This can eventually lead to an inability to digest solid foods.

Here is a great resource to learn about bulimia and how to seek help:
http://www.helpguide.org/mental/bulimia_signs_symptoms_causes_treatment.htm

I suffered from anorexia in high school. Although I was very thin, my mind was telling me I was fat. I ate very small portions of food and exercised vigorously. People commented that I was losing weight, and I thought they were giving me compliments. But they were really trying to alert me that I was getting too thin and looking unhealthy, which I was. I think my body is still paying for the damage I did to it back then.

For me, my eating disorder was my way of overcoming stress through doing something I could control...eating. I felt a sense of pride when I was able to deprive myself of food, because I bought into the whole "skinny is beautiful" lie. Now, I eat regular meals, incorporate foods from all food groups, and know that a healthy diet includes fat. Fat can come from healthy food such as meat, cheese, nuts and seeds.

Please make an appointment right away with a doctor who specializes in eating disorders. You have a disease and need help, as your body is already starting to suffer the consequences. You can fight this. Make an appointment and let us know how it goes, ok?

NW

thanks for your advice
i really am scared. i wish i could stop and just accept my body for the way it is, but my mind wont let me. it feels like purging is a part of my lifestyle now.

i have been seeing a psychologist, but i dont feel like im getting much help. night wish...i feel the same way that you did. i dont eat because its something that i can control over everything else that i cant. and when i do, then i feel proud of myself for the ability to just rid of it instantly.

what happens when i wont be able to digest solid foods? is that why my stomach and lower area feels so sickly and tangled all the time?

im not sure if this has anything to do with anything, but ive noticed im getting a lot of random bruises on my forearm and calves. just today a huge blue one popped up on my back leg...and i know i didnt run into anything or hit anything. they arent tender and dont hurt when pressure is applied but they are bruises.

thanks again for the help and resources. ill let you guys know. i just hope i have the courage in myself to try and help myself.