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Posted 10/12/2008 4:25 PM (GMT 0)
Oh Jane,

You must have been so frightened. I am so happy that your son is okay. It could have been much worse. I guess you can never be too careful, especially when it comes to looking out for that other driver. But when something like this happens, it just is so scarey. I hope that other driver gets a good fine and a huge ticket, or whatever they do. I am just so happy that your son is okay. A broken foot is so much better than what could of happened. (sigh of relief)...

I too think about your stories. And a boot in the butt sounds so funny. I have heard that they do that. It must have been hillarious. And picturing a joey sitting in a chair by the fire, that is something else. I laughed so hard when I read about these things. You must of gotten so much enjoyment out of all the wonderful things that you did for God's creatures. You are one fine person. And I am happy to have gotten to know you.

It is a beautiful morning here, I went to a bonfire last night at my friends house. It was nice and peaceful for the most part. The moon was pretty and there were a few stars, though I think some of them were distant planets. Anyhow I enjoyed getting out for a change.

You take care sweetie, I think that these things bring all of us closer together. I hope that your son recooperates soon.

Luv and hugs, Karen
Posted 10/13/2008 10:41 PM (GMT 0)

Dear jane,

I kept you and your family in my prayers and I am so glad your son was not hurt seriously.

You should write children's books about the joeys and especially how much mischivous they get into to.  Your hubby could be the booted butt in the stories.  Oh the illustrations would be so funny.

Whenever something serious happens, I see the very strong woman you really are.  You just deal with the problem and you don't stand around and debate, your a take charge person.

Hugs to you my dear Jane.

Love
Kitt

Posted 10/17/2008 12:40 PM (GMT 0)
Evening/Morning all .What a week and what a day .Today i am at my MIL`s i bought my daughter up for her last week of TAFE ( vet nursing ) block this year my last week of " freedom " for the year .I also have my son with me who was in the accident he will be keeping me company on the trip home i was so pleased when he offered to come to see his grand parents as it`s been ages since he saw them i think the accident has made him realise just how lucky he really was that night .More so i`m pleased to have him with me as with the pain relief i`m on being so strong i was not sure how i could handle driving the long distance with them in my system .I didn`t take any this morning but only lasted the first 300km without them before i had to have some just too much pain.We arrived safely late this evening after a pretty good trip the daughter slept most of the trip which was great ( no arguements ).Am heading home tomorrow morning so will be pretty tied for a few days after this but one thing is hopefully the stress levels will be down a bit with the daughter being away .
The dr out home put me on endone for the pain it does not take away all the pain but makes it bearadle now and i can do more around the house .
My two baby joeys are still with me as the lady who was going to take them has found herself a job and can`t care for them so not sure what i`m going to do now.

This next story was a bit of a shock for me ...During the summers here i peg my washing out on the line at night as i do not go out in the sun if i can help it and it saves having the clothes fade so much .This one particular night after filling the clothesline up i went to bed .During the night the larger kangaroo we has Mollie who was a Western Gray Kangaroo totally stripped all the clothes from the line she thought it must of been fun i have no idea but that was the last time she got to sleep in the yard with the nice green grass after that she had to sleep in the larger back yard .I was not impressed as i had to rewash all the clothes .
We watched her on another day grab the towels in her front hands and then kick with her hind legs at the towels until they fell from the line .then she preceeded on to the next one until we hunted her off .She would lie on her back and kidk up at the clothes just to tease us .Swas later released on a property about ten kilometers from town but within three days when we were called to a large kangaroo in the park went down to catch it only to find it to be Mollie .All the people were so amazed to see me walk up to this supposidly wild animal and begin to pat it then to have it follow me to the van . we never let on to them it was one we had had for two years .She was then released into a large national park some fourty kilometers from our little town where she could not find her way back home .
Well i`m just so tired and in a bit of pain it`s late and i have to be up early tomorrow so will say goodnight and take care one and all .
Jane
Posted 10/17/2008 1:20 PM (GMT 0)
Jane,

I am so glad your son went with you and I believe your right.  People don't realize how precious life is until they realize how close they come to nearly losing their own. Your daughter is not going to change so I am glad you get a bit of a break for you.

I heard on the news last night that a Kangaroo by the name of Mollie was headed your way so get your laundry of the lines.  rolleyes I am sorry but I would have been ROFLOL at the site of the roo helping you with the wash.

You can't keep a good roo down.  Oh my, I could run with this all day.  What a mischievous roo Mollie is.

Did you have a sign in your yard that read "Beware of Kung Foo Roo?"

I love your roos and now you still have the little ones.  (((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))) for them and big squishy ones for you.

Love
Kitt

 

Posted 10/17/2008 1:32 PM (GMT 0)
That was quite a remarkable story Jane, I just love reading about the kangaroos. Actually all of the animals amaze me that you have taken care of. You are one special person Jane, you will be blessed.

I am happy thta you get another week away from your daughter, I hope that she grows out of her argumentive stage soon. I think that it is all a part of growing up. You would think she would be more compassionate to you. I think in time she will see her ways.

It is a super cold moring here today. The ground is white with frost. I let my dog outside and now my fingers are numb. It will be nicer when the sun gets up above the trees.

I hope that you have a good day/night.

Luv and hugs, Karen
Posted 10/25/2008 5:47 AM (GMT 0)
Well so much for having a restful week here it`s over and all i did was stay in bed most of the time ,I have been so sick with pain and the side effects of the meds i didn`t care if i even died .Now i`m back up here to pick up my daughter what a wasted week this one was .
Then to top it off my nephew had me in tears this morning some kids have no idea what life is really about .Maybe one day he might look back on today and see that what i did was the right thing and that he was the one in the wrong .My only thought is i do not have to see him again and thats fine with me .I really do not care atm what happens .
Friday i finally got an appointment to see the surgeon i still have another three weeks to wait not sure if i can take this that much longer .The pain meds i`m on are causing me to be sick most of the time i even wake up sick each day ,and now they are causing me to be itchy all over an hour after i have taken them so think this one is no good either .
So when i get back home i will have to see the dr as to what else is left to try .
Driving up here was so lovely the countryside is so beautiful and green they have had plenty of rain over this way just too bad we have had none at home if it doesn`t rain soon it will be a very dry hot summer indeed .
Jane
Posted 10/25/2008 1:43 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Jane,

It was so great to read your post, though I wish that you were feeling better. I had a kind of down week too. Spent a lot of time in bed. I don't know what it was. If it was the weather or the anniversary of my first husband's death. But all in all it was a hard week.

It is raining here today, kind of gloomy. But I got to get use to that, tis the season. They are talking snow later on in a few days. Not ready for that.

I have to start going out and getting balsam boughs to start making my Christmas wreaths. I do them for the animal shelter every year at this time. Last year I donated over four hundred dollars worth to them. I hope that they sold them all. Yesterday I ordered my ribbon and some red berries that I like to put in them. I should get them Monday or Tuesday. Then I have to go out and cut. I enjoy that part, I love to get out in the woods. Sometimes I have to go into the swamps too. But it is fun. And good exercise.

My pain meds make me itch too. Sometimes if it is really bad, I take benadryl for the itching. It is something to think about. I am sorry that they make your tummy feel bad though. I wonder if there is something that you can do for that. I sure hope so.

Well, my friend, I will end here. I hope that you have a wonderful day. It was great to read your post.

Take care,

Hugs, Karen
Posted 10/25/2008 10:43 PM (GMT 0)

My Dear Jane and Lovely Karen,

OK, ladies, I am hear to cheer you up.  I am sorry Jane that you have so much pain.  I am glad my sister is pretty much pain free. I spent 4 nights as her caregiver at the Cancer lodge last weekend.  What a hoot..........they have all new appliances and oh my how things have changed.  I was like a fish out of water bopping around this giant kitchen............I could not find a measuring cup.  First day the oatmeal was to runny, second day I fried the stuff. I got an A for toast thow.

I came home Tuesday night and Wed night my sister was admitted to the hospital again.  Do you think I did something wrong? smhair She has two infections at her nephrostomy tube site so it will need to be changed and she has C-diff again. She was so hoping for a surgery date.
I know how frustrated she is. sad

Jane, tell your nephew he is a dogfish.  Don't know if you have any of those in your rivers but they are rough fish and oh so ugly.

Now Karen, over the river and to my house with a wreath please.  What a wonderful thing you are doing. I wish I had the talent and a good right thumb as I could do so much more.

I love the spirit of Christmas and the sharing of a smile or a hug. 

I am sorry today is the day you lost your first husband.  My prayers for both of you.  Karen take the time to grieve and then start getting back to what you love to do............get outside into the woods and look out for the bears.

You are both angels............. yeah
Hugs

Kitt

Posted 10/25/2008 11:53 PM (GMT 0)
Kitt,

I wish that I could give you a wreath. I will take pictures of them and send to you. For some reason when I am donating the wreaths, I can work like the dickens, but when it comes to selling them, it is harder. I don't do as well when there is a price on them. But I will get through, I do every year. It is a real big thing for me ever since I have had fibromyalgia. I just love it though, I love the smell of the fresh greens. It fills up my shop with the spirit of Christmas. But then it becomes Christmas shopping time. I am always last minute.

Jane,

I hope that you are doing well. It has been a couple of days since you have posted. I think of you often. And I know that I have to visit facebook, still don't know what I am doing when I get there. Drop in and let us know how you are.

Hugs to you both,

Karen
Posted 10/31/2008 5:54 AM (GMT 0)
sorry ihave not kept in touch but the pain has been pretty bad .Yesrteday i went back to the drs because the Endone he has me on i became allergic to it to the stage where i would pass out on it and then my whole body was continually itchy it was driving me more nuts than i already am .This time he has me on SR Morphine and eventhough i have only had two so far i feel so much better .to the extent that i have been working flat out all day doing all those things i have not been able to do for ages and am so relieved to think it`s all done now .
But the dr wants me back there in a couple of days to keep an eye on me .
I just hope these ones work for a bit longer .
I recieved some sad news on monday one of the little kiddies i use to look after years ago was killed in a car accident on monday such a waste he was a very gifted young man i feel for his family and those he has left behind ,All the ones i have cared for leave a special mark in my heart as do their familys.
Karen it`s a shame we live so far apart as i would also love to purchase one of your wreaths they sound simply wonderful.It`s a sort of a boost to the system when we can do something we love to do because no matter how tired one is there is always time and energy to sdo something we love to do and then to see the finished product at the end adds an even bigger boost.
I just want to be able to get back out in my garden for the past week or more i have not been out there it`s just too hot and i am having so much problems breathng in the heat .
Karen my dear friend how wonderful to be able to spend those few days with your sister they are memories you will both hold for ages .It`s good to see she has some relief and eventhough she has had this small set back i`m sure she will bounce back even stronger she has the courage of a lion.
well i think this is all i can handle for the moment i just need to lie down and rest for a bit everything from today is catching up on me i think .
God bless and leep you all safe and well.
Jane
Posted 10/31/2008 2:02 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Jane,

I am so happy that you found a medication that works for you. So many times it is trial and error. But don't be suprised if the morphine makes you itch a little too. You can take benadryl to combat that. It does help.

You are so sweet, I do wish that I could send you one of my wreaths. I don;t know if it would stay fresh all the way to Australia. Oh I can't remember her name, but we have another australian on board. Hopefully you two can hook up. That would be so cool.

I hope that you have a nice day. Just don't over do with your new found energy. I am so glad that you are feeling better.

Luv and hugs, Karen
Posted 10/31/2008 2:25 PM (GMT 0)

Good Morning Jane,

I am so sorry to hear of the loss of the young man who you used to take care of.  My sympathy to you and prayers too.

I am glad you got something stronger for your pain and that you have been able to complete some of the tasks you have  wanted to get done.

Bless you my friend. Now get out into your garden.

My sister went into hospital today for her chemo which they are now running over a 24 hour period as last time she reacted again.The ovarian tumor has shrunk but they want her to have 3 more round of chemo. She is a wonderful lady and her desire and determination to beat this is awesome.

Gentle Hugs
Kitt

Posted 11/1/2008 3:22 AM (GMT 0)
Karen i`m notsure if i can take anything while on this one i know the others i was not able to but so far so good.Today was my second day i have woken in no pain in my face and head won`t mention the rest of the body but that i can handle .Although at the moment i`m feeling pretty worn out must of used all the energy yesterday not to mention having to go out on two snake call outs one yesyerday and another this morning . I do not have anything that needs ( in my eyes) doing today so am planning on a rest after writing this the one yesterday just didn`t eventuate.
Last night i was just too tired i heard it start to rain but just too tired to get up the joeys had their first introduction to rain they survived ok and are none the worst for their experience.Not that it rained that much think it was just a sprinkle.
Karen another aussie you just never know maybe one day .
Kitt i hope your sister goes ok with this round of chemo and there are no problems /It does say a lot having such a positive atitude as to how things turn out .
well thats all from aissie land for today this old aussie is totally worn out .
hugs to all.
jane
Posted 11/1/2008 4:43 PM (GMT 0)
Jane,

Do you still have some joeys, or are they wild ones? What you have done for them is such a Godsend. You are a wonderful person.

I am so happy that you are feeling less pain. You don't need to continue suffering. I am just glad that you found somehting that works for you.

It was cold here this morning, hopefully when the sun gets up better, I will go for my walks. It is suppose to be nice later.

I had very few halloweeners last night, left with a bowl full of candy that I don't really like. I will probably end up eating it anyway.LOL.

I hope that when you get up, that you have a wonderful day. I promise I will check facebook so I can see what you have been up to.LOL...

Luv and hugs, Karen
Posted 11/1/2008 10:26 PM (GMT 0)
Morning /Evening Karen ,What a night last night i just seemed to be awake most of the night .I`m not sure why i was waking i have no idea i was not in pain so weather it was bad dreams or not i have no idea.The first thing i did was sneeze and now the sheets have to be washed for the second day in a row as i had a bad nose bleed if it`s not one thing then it`s another .
It`s a tad cooler here this morning and slightly overcast but not the sort of clouds to bring the much needed rain .I can cope with this as now i might be able to go into my garden for a bit as it`s just been too hot for me .
My joeys are the little ones still i will take some photos in the next few days and post them on facebook as i have no idea if we can post pictures of them in Healing Well ( which is a shame as i`m sure everyone would have lots of pictures we could all share seeing we all come from different parts of the world .
I still have Bart and Maggie but maggie is only half the size of bart now she has been really sick but by some chance she has started to pick up and is going well now .They are so friendly at this stage as they reguard me as their mum and will let me do anything to them they follow me around the yard like a little shadow never straying far and if they hear a noise they are unfamiliar with they run back and hide behind me .
I have a little willy wagtail bird it is so sweet it`s only a chick and i have had it for a couple of weeks now it just wants to eat all the time ( very similar to my youngest ) but is nearing the time for release which will be great for both of us .He came from one of the mine sites out here so will take him back and release him out there hopefully his parents will still be hanging around there and they will take him back.
Halloween isn`t that a big of a thing in my town i remember when my kids were a lot smaller they use to have fun but now they are older they don`t bother i think because it`s more of an American tradition than one here.
Last week when i was away our town celebrated the festival of the miners chost aparently one if the mines that was used many years ago is said to have some kind of a " presence " in it so i suppose they all have fun and it gives the town folk something to celebrate each year it`s becoming bigger and bigger .
Well i think i will head out to do some gardening while it`s still cooler i need something to lift me at the moment been slipping down quite a bit these past few weeks i know it in myself but do not want to see the dr as i do not want to take and more meds than i `m already on .
Take care hope you have a restful sleep and a great day when you wake
Jane
Posted 11/1/2008 10:54 PM (GMT 0)
Jane,

I do think that we are allowed to post pictures on here if we want to. I can't remember how I did it, but I did once with photobucket. Kitt is really good at it. She posted some of my photos on here before. She will help you I am sure if you want her to.

I am glad that you still have some critters hanging around. It must be so cool to have the wildlife. I use to have all kinds of animals that I would feed. Birds, turkeys, deer and squirrels. I had coyotes and foxes coming in too. Once I had a black bear. I took video of some of them. I really enjoyed watching them.

I'm heading to facebook to talk to you.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 11/2/2008 12:08 AM (GMT 0)
You MUST take of yourself. You are not alone! Keep posting and hopefully, you can find a GREAT therapist. We are NOT doctors, but we can certainly write to you!

Linda
Posted 11/2/2008 10:16 AM (GMT 0)
Many thanks olderwomenrule i have seen so many therapists over many years and decided earlier this year that i was not going to do it again .I live in a remote part of my country and the therapists do not stay here very long .Hence i`m continually going over everything with each one not one of them took time to even read my history and the last one i had i saw her once then rang and cancelled my next appointment .She rang me to ask why as she knew i was pretty bad .i told her that i couldn`t go through it all again but she left my file open and told me i could come back when ever i felt i needed to .but to me i want to move on not rehash the past .
I`m not saying the therapists do not help they are simply wonderful but just not for me .
Just talking to those here in Healing Well have helped me no end .
I think they are absolutely wonderful and so caring .
WRITING TO SOMEONE IN NEED IS GREAT THERAPY FOR ALL INVOLVED WE HELP EACH OTHER .
Jane
Posted 11/7/2008 11:04 AM (GMT 0)
Evening all not been the best of weeks just not feeling so good ,Apart from the cancer i`m feeling like everything is aching now i`m so tired and feel so sick most of the time .Everytime i go back to see th dr he just gives me more pille and they aer not helping ( the pain ones are but have to be careful as morphine is pretty strong and i do not want to rely on it that much .Today i slept four hours thisafternoon but feel as though i could drop off any minute i`m exhausted i have no energy .
On Wednesday i saw the chiropractor he thinks he can help so will see me each week when he is out here said he would treat me every day if ihe lived here and he is not charging me for any of his treatments .I am to ring one of his fellow chiropractors on Tuesday and have a talk to him as he is really interested in helping too but i`m just not sure wether i will ring i just do not know him at all as he lives about seven hours drive from me and there is no way i could afford to travel there to see him .
But the one who comes here can help the first treatment didn`t go so well as i felt instantly sick afterwards but he told me that that was a natural reaction .
I hope you are all going along one step at a time ..
Take care .
Jane
Posted 11/7/2008 7:14 PM (GMT 0)

Hey Jane,

I am sorry you are feeling so tired but if the pain med helps, I think it is wise to use it.  Morphine is not a med given out to just anyone, only people that really need it.

I have never been to a chiropractor but I did not know it was normal to feel sick after a treatment. Perhaps someone else has info on that.

Know I am here for you and praying for you.

Hugs my dear friend.

Kitt

Posted 11/8/2008 6:11 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks Kitt i did have much the same reaction many years ago (20) after i had one of my children but didn`t think anything of it until a day or so after this treatment ,
I was so scared to take the morphine as the pharmacist said to be very careful with it ,in fact i thought i had had taken quite a lot over a few days but when i looked a short while ago i had infact only taken three all week so decided to have some more to see if it helps in the way i`m feeling .The thing is i`m not sure if i am in pain maybe i am but am so use to it because it`s there all the time and i`m sort of getting use to it but anyway i took some this afternoon along with some of the other ones and will see how i go this afternoon .
All i want to do is to lie down and do not want to be around anyone especially my family but they are here all the time .I know my depression is getting to me creaping in a little furthur each day .The hardest thing i find is that i can`t talk to hubby about how i`m feeling i just seem to be pushing him furthur away .Even on his days off he gets up just so early and does not go to bed until well after midnight each night i know it`s getting harder to cope with each passing day .I feel so bad that can`t clean my house and the rest of the family just do not give a darn .If i lie down everything is still there when i get up waiting for me to do it .i just put the dish washer on from dinner last night it`s now 5:10 pm the following day .I just can`t stand whats happening anymore .
Jane
Posted 11/8/2008 4:16 PM (GMT 0)

Dear Jane,

I am so glad you can come here and talk to us.  My sister's Doctor wants her to use her pain med and  not wait until the pain is so bad it takes longer for the med to work.  yeah

I feel like a lazy lady because I cannot do heavy cleaning like vacumn cleaning, scrubbing the floors etc due to my disc herniation but I immediately get pain if I stoop over to scrub bathtubs, showers, scrub floors.  I do not want to do any further injury so I hire my granddaughters to come and help me.  Hubby does heavy cleaning.

Give yourself permission to take care of you, times change as we do.  Use the pain med and rest. 

You know we are here and prayers are coming your way.

Hugs
Kitt

Posted 11/9/2008 12:24 AM (GMT 0)
Morning/evening Kitt i can fully understand why your sister does not want to take the pain relief i am the same .However yesterday afternoon i decided to take them and again last night this morning i didn`t feel too bad when i woke uo so think i had better taake them a little bit more often even though i do not want to rely on them a lot .
How is your sister getting on since her last round of chemo ,I hope she is feeling a bit better with each passing day .Hugs
Jane
Posted 11/9/2008 2:17 AM (GMT 0)
Just popping in to say hello Jane and Kitt. I have been busy working on my wreaths. I have got half of my first order done. It is the large order for the animal shelter. I hope that they sell them all.

I hope that the both of you are having a wonderful day/night. Take care.

Luv and hugs, Karen
Posted 11/9/2008 3:00 AM (GMT 0)
Hello Karen so lovely to hear from you .Making your wreaths are a good thing just what you need to distract you from everything else and i`m sure they will be all sold no worries.
Take care and remember to have a rest now and then .
Jane
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