New Member with depression

I am 18 years old and I have had trouble with depression and anxiety for over a year. In fact I had to work up the courage just to sign up and post this message because of the anxiety I have. I am the youngest in my family but the only one with depression, it gets kinda lonely in that respect. I feel anxiety over doing things I really enjoy like playing video games or hanging out with friends. I often get angry when I play video games and my parents get very upset with me for it because I often swear. I am also still in high school which I have a great deal of anxiety over, especially since I have recently started speech class.

I have recently come off of the medication Prestiq and for a while it was helping. I was feeling better for over a few months of taking it. But then I had an allergic reaction that caused a rash under the the skin of both my legs that exacerbated the blood vessels and it was very itchy. So I was suggested to go of the medication right away and the rash dissipated. But now I am back to feeling very depressed and hopeless about life and at times thinking about suicide. Yesterday I did saliva and urine sample to have tested to determine the chemical causes of my depression (which was suggested to do by my doctor). All I want is to feel better and normal again so I can go on enjoying life.

Hey thanks enWayen, I appreciate your reply. I only feel anxiety before I go and hang out with friends but like you said it tends to become relaxing. I honestly don't feel comfortable telling my friends about my depression and anxiety. I feel if I did they wouldn't be understanding but you never know, they might be and that would be great. All of my best friends have moved, in fact, last summer I helped my newest best friend pack up to move. I have had a hard time making new friends and the friends I have now I don't feel I have much in common with. I really want to make new friends but its kinda hard to do and I don't get many opportunities.