Hi Ruth,
It looks like it was Karen, "Getting By", who first recognized Ruth from your username. She's a smart
cookie.
I'm sorry you have to file a restraining order against that guy, but I'm glad you're protecting yourself. That's a good thing, and it shows that you really care about
yourself and your safety.
I hope you can get some satisfactory treatment for the PTSD. I've struggled with that, too, and it took me some hard work and therapy to be able to deal with it.
You sound more positive and hopeful, and I do hope you will continue to post to us. I'm really glad you came back to let us know how things are going.