pastoram
I am so glad you started a thread of your own and you have come to the right place to build a support group to help you through the tough times.
I have found so much support, sharing and yes love from the members of this forum so do trust the members to support you.
I am sorry you are feeling down but there is a light at the end of the tunnel and if you put one foot in front of the other, you will get to that light.
Trust in the power of a peer support group.
I wish you peace and happiness,
Kitt