Posted 8/16/2009 8:13 PM (GMT 0)
soccer,
I am sorry to hear you are feeling so lonely, though I'm relieved to hear your p's threw out the Advil. All that does is add on even more trouble to one's life. I remember from my own experience that it seems nearly impossible to even think about going out into the world & trying new things & meeting new people, but ultimately that's what helped me heal. We will be here for you as much as possible, but nothing beats real live friends. I really want to encourage you to get out there & try at least one new thing per week -- sports, hobbies, even just joining a movie or book club. Anything at all, it doesn't matter whether or not you'll think you'll like it -- you'd be surprised by some of the things you'll actually like if you just try them. If the people there are nice, you've found new friends to hang out with instead of feeling so lonely & disconnected. If they aren't such great people, you can always come here for support & let us know what happened.
One other thing you might consider is group therapy. That way you can be in a structured setting, with a therapist & meet other people who are struggling with similar issues. Usually people in group therapy are pretty open-minded & won't judge you for the things you've done in the past or the things you still struggle with now. Just a thought. Anyways, just take things one moment at a time. When you feel lonely, realize it is your soul's way of telling you to go out & find nice people to hang out with, not to load up on pain killers. It's so hard to change our thoughts, but by keeping repeating healthy thoughts to yourself every day, little by little you will find that making good choices & thinking happy thoughts will come easier & easier.
Probably other members will come along to share their own ideas of how to get through the loneliness & maybe you have some ideas of your own -- just keep fighting against the negative, self-destructive thoughts & keep making positive choices. We are 100% behind you!
-Frances