need help bad

heyy the problem is a couple off things. since i was in elementary school councelors have said that i have depression and altrougth up to high school (im 17) they have said the same and they have even said when i got up to high school that i had enxiety and addiction problems and was recomended to see a psycologist butt my parents never have wanted 4 me 2. eavry day and drink almost eavry day and whenever i can get my hands on eanithing alse i do it 2. also mostt off my worst and most recent depression has come from a recent problem when around a year ago i started going out with this girl and we dated for around 6 months or 4 and i had realised trougth this relationship that i had a bigg problem since i was completely obssesed with her and trougth that relationship lots off things happened wich left her has my only meens besides  to cheer me up, such has i got arrested, kicked out off school, beaten by my parents for the 1st and only timme, friends died and she was always there trougth all off it, after she broke up with me i went for around 3 months drinking and getting really drunk and  and eanithing alse i could do to try and forget about her and trougth that timme i insulted her daily for a reason i still cant understand after that timme passed and we didnt talk for about 3 months we became friends with benefits and friends again and now she is one off my best friends butt not being able to go out with her makes me want 2 drink and myself some how eavry day to just forget about her also about 3 weeks ago i left the U.S. to go to my homme country where i have been for the last 4 weeks where i courently dont have any friends, my parents dont let me go out since we have just arrived and i dont know much here and its dangerouse, i start school soon and all i do all day is stay homme and compusevly look for any sign off atention from this girl who just today told me that she didnt want 2 talk 2 me for the next couple off months, eavry day and eavry hour prity much i cant help butt think about her obbsesivly and always want 2 be with her, i check my email eavry day for unlist an hour or 2 after i write her a misseage (usually around 5 or 6 messages eavry 5 hours) 2 check iff shes talked 2 me. trougth all that has happened 2 me with her im still in love with her and all i want 2 do right now is  myself i really dont know what to do not to mention whenever we talk i try and find out iff shes been with other guys and the response i got is usually a yes. for what iv looked up what i have sounds like a thing called "obbsesive love" butt i could just be thinking it is. i really need help i dont know what to do i feal like all this has been building up inside and covered up by  and now is starting to spill over i really need help.

sorry to eavry one for my horrible writing and thanks to eany one that may post something or has taken the timme to read this

Sorry that I had to edit, please read forum rules.  We are not to mention illegal drugs or suicide. 

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 10/4/2009 11:24:14 PM (GMT-6)

still back at school, i am 37. worked until my brain cracked. been pensioned off for a bit. my life is starting to come together, let me tell you i wished i had stayed in school. a mature age student-and life learner i recommend you go back, real quick. cheers, jamie. ps. a missed spent youth is just that!!!! missed, playing catch up can be a real pain in the.............good luck. jamie

dx, mdd, severe borderline personality disorder.

i forgot to mention butt i am planning to go back 2 school but my parents are currently looking for a school for me to attend to since in my country its really hard to get good education without entering a private school. also im very sry i hadent really read the rules before i just kainda went straigth too writing i read the rules now and im again very sry

Post Edited (gustafer) : 10/5/2009 10:31:04 AM (GMT-6)

Heej Gustafer,

I think I can relate to what you are going through. When I was between the ages 15 and 17 I was also obsessed with girls. Unfortunately I am also afraid of them due to my social anxiety , so I never really dated anyone. But now, being 19, the obsessiveness is gone. So maybe for you it will too be something you grow over. In the meantime, it might be a good idea to try as many things you can imagine that will take your mind off of her. School can be one, as a hobby, working in the garden, working in the household, or cooking can be. Labour like that can be very rewarding, and give you a sense of self-worth. And if you are lucky you can be happy doing that and be happy without the need of thinking about her. It might help.

Take care Gustafer, and keep us posted OK? That can be a huge help too!

Erik

I guess that the best thing that you can do is to take it one day at a time. See what happens. I take medications to keep me from thinking too much about something. Maybe that is what you need. Have you been to a doctor lately? Or a counselor?

I really don't know what else to tell you. Your obsession with her isn't really healthy. Hopefully you two can be friends. You have to get on with life and learn about you. You are a good person and deserve to think of you.

I think that a psychologist is good because they do talk therapy and if they feel you need medications they will consult a psychiatrist. I have been going for years and it has really helped me.

I don't understand the intervention thing. If you want to explain more you can unless there will be rules broken. I think a bit of therapy with a psychologist or any type of counselor would be good. But psychologists have always helped me the most.

I hope that you can start thinking of what you would like to do with your life instead of dwelling on past issues. It is so important.

Hugs, Karen

Hello gustafer, I'm sorry that you are having a rough time right now. I can understand why this girl is important to you, because she was there for you during tough times. People many times forge relationships during times like these. However, it seems like right now it is not a healthy relationship. Focus on getting yourself better, and reach out to people (parents, counselors, or this place) who can help. Take it a day at a time and find new ways to occupy yourself. It takes time but you will get better.