LOST IN DEPRESSION

 I don't know what to do anymore, it seems like I'm just lost in this big jungle of a world I live in. I have become scared to leave the house, and the only time I get dressed or comb my hair is when I have to go to the doctor. I'm dreading tommorrow because I have to actually get dressed an leave my home. I was reading blue eyes blogg and I can understand everything he is talking about. When does it end, when does the sadness stop, when are U going to be happy again. What is going on, I cant even tell anymore. I'm trying to go back to work feeling like this, I know I have to push myself so the Pdr will let me go back, but I see myself loosing it in there. I really think I need to go to an institution for awhile, last time it scared me so bad because some of those people really were out of it.

My head is spinning and every morning I wake up with a bad headache,my mood swings are driving me crazy just 2hours ago I was just fine, I'm pacing the floor the only time my mind gets rest is when I sleep that's after I take all my medicine. Our family needs my part of the income and that is 1 reason why I'm a wreck. Is there only 1 way out like blue eyes said? When I read his I wanted to comment but I couldn't, but I think that's not the answer we have to somehow push ourselves out of this slump where in. Im tired tired tired of everything, it does make U think It's got to be better than this on the other side. Typing fast sorry if thinks dont make since.

     psuedoseizures,depression,anxiety     

Hi Reallife,

I am sorry that you are feeling so down right now. Maybe you aren't on the right medications. You should talk to your doctor about the way that you are feeling. It sounds like you might need some type of adjustment. I know, it is no fun changing medications, but maybe yours isn't right for you. You don't want to go to work without the right meds in your system. So talk to the doctor before you try working.

I hope that you feel better soon.

Hugs, Karen

Blue Eyes,

You didn't depress me anymore than I was! I just really could relate to what U were talking about, no sorry is needed. Thank U all I went to my appt today and my homework was to go to my job and walk in the front door without my husband and talk with the nurses. That was big for me because I don't leave the house but to go to my appt. and for me to walk in there see the people that I have worked with and had to hold a conversation with them because they havent seen me in so long that was SCARY im talking about sweating so bad my sweater was soaked, my hands were so wet, and I atleast had to go to the bathroom 5 times, I was so nervous BUT I DID IT I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF. Next week there going to take me for a walk around the whole plant so everyone can see me and wont wanna ask me a million questions. As for medicine I have tried it all either the side effects were terrible and I had to stop it or it just didnt work for me. Any sugestions

I am for the deep breathing too. It sounds like you have high anxiety when around other people. But the breathing slows down everything so that you can regroup. Try to breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth. It is refered to as smelling the roses and blowing out the candles. It really brings the anxiety down.

Also walking is good. If you could get out and walk a little everyday. That would be good. Gradually increase how much you walk. Brisk walking is the best. It really centers you and makes your mind clear.

Also I meditate. It helps me to go to sleep at night. Also can bring the anxiety down.

I am able to take medications, I am sorry that you have had so many side effects and had them just plain not work. There is always new ones coming out. You might want to talk to your doctor about that. Do you go to counseling? It really helps me a lot. I highly recommend it.

I am working a job right now. I hadn't worked in seven years. I was so afraid that I couldn't do it. But I am. It is still one day at a time. But I am succeeding. Each and every day. I hope that you are able to do this as it makes you feel really good about yourself.

Best wishes and keep us up on how things are going.

Hugs, Karen

Working is a huge accomplishment. It really makes you feel good to know that you are contributing to the household. But if it doesn't work out, don't take it out on yourself. It is what it is. But I have a feeling that you will do well and you will feel so good about yourself. Please let us know how it goes. For me it is a way to take my mind off of my problems. I guess because I am so busy at the time.

Best wishes on your new job. And again, let us know how it goes. Keep posting, as I feel this is helping you.

Hugs, Karen