New Here, too.

Hi Everybody. I'm Gingermom, and have been struggling with depression for a while now.  I"m bi-polar, but I don't really swing up on the meds I'm on now. I"m on seroquil, abilify, and clonozopam. I loss my husband 4 months ago, but I was depressed long before that. My concern is that I have suicide thoughts off and on . I have no intention of harming myself, but the thoughts are disturbing. I'm on disability, and don't work , so I'm home by myself most of the time and would appreciate talking to anyone.

Thanks for the reply, I do take walks most every day. Today is rainy and miserable , so I'm kind of stuck. I don't drive and public transportation here isn't so great , so volunteering is kind of hard . I have a couple of groups I attend during the week, but its so hard to get rides. I just feel so isolated.  Gingermom

Welcom to HW Gingermom! You will find that we have an elaborate support system here. We are all dealing with the same kind of things and so we help each get through the touch times.. and try to encourage others when they are down. Im sure it will help you coming here since it is so hard for you to get out and do other things and talk to people, etc.

Volunteering like Karen mentioned is a good thing, I do that myself. It is a problem when you cant always get transportation. But perhaps sometime it will be more available. Since you are not able to do that, I would suggest you keep a journal. Each day write down how you feel and what you are thinking. Try to avoid boredom or simply sitting around. Try writing or drawing or painting or something to get your mind off things.

Also, you may want to check in to getting counselling. Often, you can find a low-cost mental health facility and they will offer public transportation in order for you to make your appointments, etc. You may want to look in to it at least and see whats available in your area. Talking with someone can really help you and they may have more to offer you than we can on here, since we are not certified or anything, we cant offer medical opinions. We can only share our experiences with one another because most of us have been through a lot of the same stuff.

If you ever need to talk or vent or have questions, anything... you can come here. We are glad to help you, listen to you, etc. Keep posting.

Take Care,
Christi