Hey... I have a problem... a big one

charlies girl, i too am a survivor. i am male and i too was young. my advise would be to talk with your doc and seek a referal to a sexual abuse professional. these people are very understanding, patient and really help. please remember that what has happened is not your fault, and never will be!

my compassion to you. jamie

okay then i would suggest a relevant help-line in your area, and or if there is services through your local hospital. i am sure if you call a help -line service in your area i am sure that services would be made available to you either at no or very low cost. in australia i had 12 sessions that were at no cost, thus check it out. i think this very important. i wish you well, and i admire your courage in seeking assistance. with compassion, jamie

Hi Charliesgirl,

It sounds like you are going through Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. This like repressed memories. I really suggest that you get in to see a counselor or doctor and get some help with this. But remember your mind will only let you remember as much as you can mentally and emotionally at that time. But it can get scarey.

You are not to blame, even if your parents do find out. You were to afraid to tell them about it, but it is something that happened that you really need to deal with.

Just remember, this was not your fault.

Keep posting.

Hugs, karen

Thanks a lot for the responses and advice.
Shuvvykins- I'm really sorry to hear you went through it too. It's evil. I was abused when I was seven by my day care provider's daughter, who was 14 and she often times would "do two at a time" making us watch eachother and stuff. Part of her evil was making us hurt each other otherwise she would beat us.... it was hard adn I never told anyone because my best friend was stuck with me in it and she tried adn no ne believed her, she was ten.... I figured who would believe a seven year old right? So far I've been through depression, four sucide attempts, self injury, and binge eating disorder. I was starting to get better with everything else when it started to come back.... it was eleven years after and they just come in my sleep, when I zone out, if something seems familiar it can trigger one.... I'm scared to do anything because it might bring out more memories and I can't even handle the ones I already have. I apreciate your concern adn advice, but once again i can't get to a doctor. I live in an upscale communtity where nothing is free or charity.

getting by- I'm not sure what PTSD really is, but I guess it might make sense.... what do people tend to do for it?

Jamiee- thanks for being there :D

thanks! I'll definitely look into those books