Hi Carol,
It seems that you have a lot on your plate right now. I am sorry about the heart attack. I hope that things go better in that respect. And I am sorry that your husband assaulted you. Glad you booted him out. I think that you will be surprised at how much your son's will help you. I think you have a good support system there. Just go easy on yourself. Take things slowly. I would seriously think about the antidepressants. That can make such a difference in your life, but I respect your decision not to if that is what you are going to do. I take a lot of anti depressants, sick of pills all together. I take ten differnt things a day. Just filling my pillbox on Saturday nights is a stressful job. But I get it done, becasue if I don't I am stressed in the morning putting them together. lol...
I hope that you feel better soon. Keep on keeping on. You will get there, and you will learn your limitations. It just takes time.
Let the doc know of anything that concerns you about your heart. That is so important.
Keep posting.
Hugs, Karen