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Posted 2/28/2010 8:32 PM (GMT 0)
i dont know if i'm putting this in the right section but i just need some help and advice.
so first of all i am 17 years old, and i am a girl,
i have heard voices and seen things since i was 12/13, mild at first gradually worse, tell me horrible awful things to do and such, but that isn't the problem right now today,
i can't do anything today nothing, not even things i want to do, today is a day (sunday) which is probally the best day for me when i have no college or anything just a day which i can do what i want i guess, but for five hours all i've been able to do now today is sit and stare and breathe and just sit don't even feel like i've barely been blinking just nothing, feel dead inside so empty, i have work to do for school tomorrow, i wanted to watch this film , i need to have a shower, but i'm just feel dead inside , i don't know what to do , i feel i have lost myself, i don't know quite what i'm asking you to tell me, i should have gone to the doctor i know, i've had serval appointments before , i've had to cancell them when the time nearlly comes to go i can't and hurts my insides with fear of it, its a long story but i will i go i will so please don't say i think you need to see a doctor i will but its just i need somebody to say something now something to help now i don't know who can do that now, today now, so please somebody i don't know what it is you can do you help exacally at all but i feel i'm loosing myself completally please help me somehow?
thankyou for your time, xxx

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 2/28/2010 3:11:20 PM (GMT-7)

Posted 2/28/2010 8:38 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Panda,

You are welcome here, and I hope you will feel better soon. You're not losing yourself, but you are in need of medical attention. You have more complicated issues going on then just depression. I understand you dont' want to hear that, but it's what needs to happen. Are you taking any medication right now? Seeing anyone? Do your family know about your situation?

serafena
Posted 2/28/2010 8:47 PM (GMT 0)
Thankyou for your reply,
ii am not on any medication right now and never have been and i'm not currently seeing anybody about it , i have before shortly after turning 14 was sent to see a mental health counsellor via my school, my mum( and i only live with just my mum so yeah none of my other family knows or anything) was very angry about it and said i wouldn't be able to get a job (because of they put it on records i know its confidential i think she just told me that to make me not want to go) if i did and that i couldn't speak to anybody about things that like because she believed i was going through a phase, but i didn't listen to her and went to see somebody behind her back and didn't want her to find out, few months down the line they sent me a letter trying to send me away to stay over in the hospital my mum read the letter she was so mad, and i remember the day so clearly it was horrible, she said that i was a lier and selfish to her and all of these things and was just so mad, of course i never ended up going to the hospital or to speak to anybody ever again and i've been so scared to ever since, and if i was going to i wouldn't want to tell my mum , she isn't a bad person it just makes her mad, me and my mum never spoke about it again from that day,
x
Posted 2/28/2010 10:08 PM (GMT 0)
Hi there,

It sounds like your mom is in denial about your mental health situation. You have to do what is right for you. If you need to seek help, then do so. You could probably take some medication and you would stop hearing the voices. It is relatively easy to do, but you might need some extensive care. Don't be afraid, they are only trying to help you. I just think your mom doesn't want to understand because maybe she is afraid to face this with you. But you can be strong and persue help. And remember that we are here for you. So keep posting.

Try not to be angry. Try to relax today so that you can work on your school work. Know that you have us for support. I will post some websites for depressed teens, there could be somebody that can help direct you there or have been in the same situation.
http://www.teencentral.net/

http://www.forums.teenhelp.org/

http://www.teenhut.net/


Best wishes to you.

Hugs, Karen

Posted 2/28/2010 10:27 PM (GMT 0)
Hello thankyou for your reply,
yes i think she doesn't want to believe it and can't believe it also i am her only child she has, :/ so i don't think that its because she's been horrible i think its because she can't deal with it and can't stand to believe it and so won't.

and okay thankyou about the websites i will check them out soon .(:

i also find i get very like overstressed, and sometimes over things which i don't need to be stressed about , i don't know if this is at all relevent but i feel that that does really affect me sometimes , like get stressed then confused of what to do like with the stress and then kind of in a panic because of it and all that and its i dont know i cant really explain that well , and maybe its totally unerelevent to anything that but i thought i'd just wanted to share that also.

xx

Post Edited (Panda656) : 2/28/2010 3:30:51 PM (GMT-7)

Posted 2/28/2010 10:55 PM (GMT 0)
Panda,

Stress plays a huge roll in depression and visa versa. They kind of go hand in hand. When we are depressed we tend to stress out easily which makes us more depressed. And everything seems really bleak. Like nothingness and overwhelming at the same time. I know how you are feeling, I have been there. The best thing that seemed to help me was to learn to take things one day at a time. Try not to worry about the future or dwell on the past. I know that is easier said than done, but it can be mastered with practice. For instance, you have a huge test coming up. If you worry about it, it just makes it harder to study. If you take it as it comes, maybe make a small schedule for study time and break it up into segments, it is a lot less overwhelming. Something like that anyway. I think you can understand what I am trying to say. Just live for the moment, or in the now as they say. Don't look further than the day and what you have to deal with and are doing at that time. I am not saying that you shouldn't prepare for the future, just try not to worry about it. Try to take life as it comes. You will make it. I have faith in you.

I hope that you are having a better day.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 3/1/2010 3:21 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Panda...hope you are feeling better now and that you got something done today...I truly know what you are talking about..hours going by without really doing anything...glad you will see your doctor and please tell him/her what you are doing through...big hugs and caring thoughts, J

Posted 3/1/2010 6:29 PM (GMT 0)
Karen,
Thanks so much for all that advice, because its good because i do often stress about the future actually which i should't and so now i'm going to try and take your advice of living for the moment and take it just day by day and not stress about things which are way to far ahead and such, you give really great advice. So far today i seem to be having a better day , i've had a full tidy of my room and its so much more relaxing in here now and i think that has helped abit in a small way to feel more relaxed and things and calmer for the day. (: . Hugs x

J,
Thankyou so much for your reply, everybody here is so kind of thoughtful (: think i will go to make an appointment with the doctor towards the end of this week, (: and hopefully will be able to go to it and everything then see how that goes... (: Hugs x
Posted 3/1/2010 6:45 PM (GMT 0)
It does help you to relax when things are in order. It is hard when things are out of sorts. So I am glad that you were able to tidy up.

Just keep taking things one day at a time. And it will fall into place. Life is funny sometimes, and we have to step out of the picture to see it for what it is. You are doing good my friend. Keep up the good work.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 3/1/2010 7:04 PM (GMT 0)
Thankyou (:

yeah its so much more relaxing when everythings in place and order, i do have a question and i think its a bit of a odd one but it is something which really worrys my mind alot and often causes me sometimes to not be able to sleep well,

i have always wanted lots of children like 6 or 8 or just lots i'd love so much a big family when i'm older ( i know its early to think about it but yeah) i'm an only child and live with only my mum so a very small family in the house and so i'd love a big family when i am older, and can't wait to have children, it's always been something i've very much looked forward to, but then about a month or a bit more ago i was coming up my stairs and i heard the noise of a small child like as though it said something small which didn't make much sense, i was a bit confused as i'd never heard a child or anything before, but i went on to my room but then the voices about 5 minuets after or something said that that baby was dead, and then that it was my baby , and then that it was my future dead baby , and then that i was the one who killed it. now of course i don't even have a baby yet or anything and i know it sounds kind of crazy and wierd and but honestly it really worrys me,..

do you think like i dont know that that is something which i should be worried about?

Hugs x
Posted 3/1/2010 7:38 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Panda,

I would talk to a doctor or a therapist about hearing voices. You could have a form of schitzophrenia. Which will cause you to hear voices and even see things. My mother was a paranoid schitzophrenic and she heard voices and they said horrible things to her. I wouldn't think that the voices could be right, I am sure that you will be able to have children and that they will be happy and healthy, but as for the voices, I would get in to see somebody as soon as you can. There are medications that can stop that and you can live a happy and healthy normal life. So please talk to your doctor, and possibly see a psychiatrist. I see a psychiatrist and he writes my prescriptions. I also see a psychologist for counseling. So please do get with somebody on this, the sooner the better for you. Know that you can always come here for some answers, but there are just some things that you should seek professional help for. And voices is definately one of them.

Keep posting and let us know how you are doing. You are such a sweet person and there is no reason for you to continue to suffer with this disorder.

Hugs to you, Karen
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