Is been tough!! need to be heard.. idk what to do

  I met this guy which he was wonderful and my parents hated him and I got pregnant at 16 yrs old I tried denying it to everyone til my 3rd month of pregnancy which were the hardest months because I would cry because i knew i was going to get kicked out my home.. he would say he waned the best and would alway be there for me... But i ran away to tell my parents which i got caught and got in bigger problems.. They ended up accpeting it and me and him got married at 16 and him was 18. we had our daughter and every penny we would save up. then i found out he was cheating but i felt that he was going to change and he did and plus i was still in high school so i was afraid that I was going to get my daughter taken away since he was the only one working.. then he changed and loved me and we were doing good just we would argue alot especially over money never became physical but we were starting to be distant he started to ignore me and be rude and play xbox 24/7 and he doesnt have friends so i would tell him lets go out and he didnt want to and he would just not want to do anything at all.. until recently we got into an arguement on valentines and he left.. he came back the next day and tried to talk the arguement over but i checked his cel and he txtd some girl that he loved her and always wanted to be with her and i was devistated.. i didnt kno what to do.. he just said it was a girl from his job and he was mad at me and didnt mean it.. i didnt care and obiosly didnt wana hear it.. i was really upset and i told him to leave.. He is still with the girl and i tried moving on with a great guy which helps me and accpets my daughter but it isnt the same everything that i would argue to my husband he does but i still dont appreciate it... when im with him i forget bout everything is just me and him and my daughter but when he leaves is like all i think bout is my husband.. Me and my husband are getting a divorce right now we doing child support and custody but i tried talking to him and it went from arguing to we want to be together but both of us dont kno if is the right thing to do.. he doesnt want to go to therapy aside from that im in my last year of high school and since all that is going on Im a wreck trying to balance school and all thats going on... Ive missed countless days of school cuz i feel depressed dnt want to get out of bed but i look at my daughter and its a motivation but lately Is really hard and i can barely think. I got 3 months left of school and i was doing good now i got bad grades.  I asked the counselor at school for help but they are getting me a therapist but they only come once a month for evaluation the soonest doctor appoinment they had was in a month and its taking forever.. with alll this Im living with my parents and everything i do gets critized.. I have barely no money and Im looking for a job.. I want to provide the best for my daughter the money i get from child support i buy her.. her stuf,, she is doing great just i dnt want her to see me like this.. I try going out to clear my head but It gets harder and harder... My new boyfriend helps me and I dnt want to let him go because he is wonderful but im scared im going to hurt him like by seeing me like this and he does whatever he can but i cant just relax and I feel nervous all the time and moody and like happy then sad then i want to cry then i just wana spend time with my daughter then just be alone... and everywhere i go people ask and want answers.. and is hard to let my husband go when i have to see him about our daughter.. but then i want to because is whats best is the second time he cheated.. and Ive been hearing he was talking to girls.. but he denies it... he says he going to change but i dnt know what to believe and he also says he doing great with his new girl but im so confused...i needed someone to talk to... Im sorry is long but i needed to let it out...thank you for reading

Hi Babee2010,

You are in a difficult spot right now. The first thing I would do is work on school. That is most important, next to your daughter that is. Try to get your diploma so that you can get a good job when you get done. You can get a summer job and that will help out a lot.

You are so young to have all of this responsibility. But I think you know what is right. It is possible that you have post partum depression. Which happens after you have a child. Keep up with the counseling. That is a good thing. Maybe your doctor can give you something to help you along. Let him know what is going on when you see him. If you call the office, maybe they can get you in sooner. That would help too.

Keep posting. It is good to vent and get things out. You sound like a good caring person and a good mom. Keep your chin up. Never give up. Know that we are here for you and really do care about you.

Hugs, Karen